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Life In The Great Down Under So Far && MY BIRTHDAY! ~

2009-04-14T20:44:00.000-07:00

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Hey what's up peeps,

It's been awhile hasn't it

I haven't been able to get a hold of time to get on my blog.

But here i am now! TA DA!!

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Well, past few weeks have been fun guess.

South Australia Isn't all that cracked up to be

to be quite honest

It's way more entertaining than what people perceive as

i mean, even thought they only have one street which they call a "MALL"

Rundle Mall, it's still better than being in a third world country.

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let's see what else is new..

My Birthdays Coming Up Soon

&& Apparently i have this so called "SURPRISE PARTY"

that everyone was supposed to keep on the low.

well not a BIG secret there.

Someone needs to keeps his mouth shut more often

rather than telling me everything

>>>[NATHAN]<<<

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But Nathan Is My Sweets

SO NO ONE CAN BULLY HIM EXCEPT ME.

GOT THAT!

I don't know who i'm talking to now?

but anyways, i'm just hoping to get a really great first birthday party in Australia.

&& Hopefully that will come true.

Well it would suck if my birthday did.

So i'll keep it updated.

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xoxo

Michelle <3

My Feel Of Australia && Experiences ~

2009-03-05T22:26:00.000-08:00

Hey peeps!

OMG the first day i landed here

I freaked out!

I didn't know where to go,

i didn't know who would pick me up,

i didn't even know what the ell i was doing.

Thank God when i landed i saw an A4 size paper with my name on it.

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&& i met up with a lovely lady named Miss Dorris.

She's awesomely sweet && motherly

Now that's scary, she treats me like her own child.

i get pressured on by her if i haven't eaten or done my washing

or if i come home late!

I feel the pressure, it keeps getting more intense!

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but it seems nice here,

the air is cool, well that's because i landed at 7.ooam

&& it was still about night time,

i met this old man who came from England but lived in Adeliade

He was a SUper nice guy, scared me a little though

coz he was massive, he wasn't that fat,

but i like over exaggerating xD

But he was nice, gave me alot of tips on where to go.

but honestly i have forgotten half the things he said.

My ass was so tired from the flight as well.

It got me irritated && wanting to wlak around,

but i would probably get into trouble that way

since the seat belt signs always on.

&& there is hell loas of terbulance

the only problem about it now

is that i don't know anyone

or anything to begin with.

well now miss Dorris n Chris [ Her Boyfriend] && SURIA

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I met up with suria on the first day

there was a little miss communication

&& i fell asleep when she came

It was hilarious!

I never knew she had her own place up at flinders

Nor the fact that she had a BOYFRIEND && SHE WAS GETTING MARRIED.

I coudn't take that all in at once.

The fact that i saw her made me happy

then meetuing her boyfriend

then knowing she's getting married..

WHOOOOOOOOOOOO..

HOLLAR IF U HAVE A SPAZ FIT!

now that's too much, knowing her long ago

i never dreamt that i would hear the first words,

I'm getting married straight after meeting her.

Talk ABout Shock in Lock.

But yes i am very much happy for her.

Sadly i won't be able to make it to her wedding

due to the fact that it would be in Malaysia

While I'm here in Adeliade.

Oh well, we'll see what happens over time.

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xoxo

michelle <3

Counting Down For Down Under ~

2009-02-15T23:21:00.000-08:00

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Australia!

Shall Be My New Home From Now On.

Moving Away So Fast.

I Never Imagined Myself Leaving This fast.

I Always Thought If I Moved,

Mum, Dad The Whole Family Would Be With Me.

&& Everything Would Be Cool, Fine && hunky-dory.

But no, it seems that we all have our own paths to take.

to walk n keep our faith alive as we go.

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well, 2 days left..

Byes Malaysia, i shall miss thee.

Thanks for all the memories.

I really loved && enjoyed myself growing up here.

&& you'll always be my home.

2009-02-11T20:55:00.001-08:00

OMG!

This is the time of my life.

Once i got the call.

I WAS SOO HAPPY

LIKE A RCKET GOING TO THE MOON IN WARP MODE!

Time of call: 11.47am

Date: 12.0209

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I'm Leaving to AUSTRALIA!!

i can't believe it

after all the angst from my medical check up

I was so freaking bloody afraid that i could not go

due to my condition

BUT NO!

I MADE IT!!

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I Thank God For Everything That Has Happened To Me So Far.

&& I Know He Will Continually Bless Me With More To Come.

My Dreams Are Coming True.

&& It's All Because Of God.

Thanks God, Thank You FOr listening To My Prayers.

Love You Daughter: Michelle <3

Medical Check Ups Are Major Problemos ~

2009-01-25T08:06:00.000-08:00

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Lalalalala..

I hate medical check ups.

first they make you wait in line..

like a CENTURY!

then they make you pee in cup.

Then they need your blood

&& I HATE NEEDLES!!

then they make you wait for the doctor to come back from his lunch or whatever.

because you have been waiting bloody long

in that bloody LINE!!

&& then you have to wait again.

then when you finally get to see

he gives u a look at && says, "Okay, we will wait til your test results come back!

&& then we'll call you.

So you can come back here to take your results && i shall explain them too! =D

*WOW!! Doesn't that sound wonderful!*

AFTER PAYING YOU HEAPS OF MONEY && WAITING THE WHOLE DAY!

JEEPERS! THANKS MISTER! YA HIUCK^^ ~

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haha, i sound angry.

But no, i am not.

i assure you.

You Want To Know Why?

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It is because..

I usually that happens a lot.

to most people

But, i ain't most people.

So usually i never wait.

I'm so used to having my own family doctor

it is like i do not even realize.

Well now once he finally retired.

I feel Like KILLING HIM WITH MY OWN HANDS!!

But he had a heart attack

&& he is getting older.

SO AM I =.=

But now i can say that i am definitely grateful towards him.

Always being there when i need.

Going over to my grandma's house

Checking up on me.

He was a great doctor

&& i shall miss him as my doctor.

I Hope && Pray he has a good life.

He lived well && raised 2 sons

Who are ALSO doctors!!

Their really good.

My doctor is the best, no joke.

He was the best until he retired, no one can compare.

So i've got a good taste of what people go trough.

&& it's pretty sad to wait.

But life goes on.

&& mine will be AWESOME!!

HELLADINK HUH?!

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but anyways..

Peacoutlaterbros huh =D ~

Probably? Most Blessed Of The Bunch ~

2009-01-15T06:08:00.000-08:00

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I don't really know what to say or think,

God really has wonders && miracles for me && my future.

It is really good to know there is someone looking out for me.

Well, make a that more than that certain one.

The feeling of being so blessed, that everything wanted as right in front of my face.

It is just that obstacle to see whether if i were stupid or clever enough to realize it.

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I always thought things had to be hard in order to get what you want.

There had to be trial && strive in your life.

But now i kind of realized i did not need to go through bloody hard obstacles to go where

&& be what i wanted to.

I am probably just to stubborn to realize my Oh' So annoying way of thinking.

I find it stupid that i would suddenly purposely make life hard on me

For no bloody reason.

Humans i guess, are like that.

We are always found doing something we are not supposed to

Or doing something of the opposite.

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Why do we do these things?

So we ca realize the hilariousness in it all && have a good laugh

While learning a really important value, like,

How NOT to be a Dick-Head next time?

This is why being a human sucks,

We sometimes allow things to get the better of us,

That makes us make bad decisions that we will probably regret in the future.

Like for example:

Your fight with your childhood's best friend.

you decided that your never going to see nor talk to her again.

Now aren't you being a Dick-Head?!

Your throwing away all your wonderful memories you had together,

throwing it down the drain just for that silly little fight?

PSSH, IDIOT!

But that does happen, does it not

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The reason why i say i am so blessed.

Is because God has planned everything out for me.

&& this is me [being an idiot for the moments] not noticing what God has planned.

Trying to do everything myself, my way.

But it is not like i am purposely doing it.

It is so not, but yet i did not listen properly.

It's like feeding a dog chocolate, when you know it is going to die if you do so.

So you know what, instead of me trying so bloody hard.

Why do i think i need to do such hard work, when he is telling me at the back of my head.

"Why are you working so hard && exhausting yourself?"

It's like kissing a guy when you though it was your girlfriend.

It's like telling a snake to not bite me && thinking it understands. [stupidity]

I'm just going to let go, relax

&& let Him do the work.

Which He already is.

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Thank You, God.

I Love You.

&& If i never say this enough,

I'm writing it down,

right here, right now,

In this note

for the whole world to see.

See how much i love you && know you are alive in me.

Love, You Daughter:

Michelle.

21 Thing Guys Really Are ~

2009-01-11T04:06:00.000-08:00

Hey, have anyone of you ever realized how Guys can be totally sensitive?

I have =).

Not because i just read this, but most of it of what i have read so far

are kind of true..

i'm just amazed someone actually took the time to write it all down.

well maybe there's more to it than these 21 things?

So yeah, here is 21 things guys really are.

Enjoy =)

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1) Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about....

2) Guys are more emotional than you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer then you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try.

3) Guys go crazy over a girl's smile:)

4) A GUY WHO LIKES YOU WANTS TO BE THE ONLY GUY YOU TALK TO.

5) Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

6) If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

7) A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

8) Guys love you more than you love them.

9) Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole heck of a lot.

10) If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

11) If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and he is really thinking about something

12) When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is

Guys rarely say that

13) WHEN A GUY ASKS YOU TO LEAVE HIM ALONE, HE'S JUST ACTUALLY SAYING, "PLEASE STAY AND LISTEN"

14) If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

15) When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking

of something.

16) Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them

17) A guy would give the world to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

18) No guy can handle all his problems on his own.

He's just too stubborn to admit it

19) NOT ALL GUYS ARE RUDE!!!

Just because ONE is RUDE doesnt mean he represents ALL of them

20) when a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to talk to you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

21) Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loves you, he probably still does.. and if he had one wish, it would be you to come back into his life..

Everything said in this is True

NickleBack - Gotta Be Somebody : current feeling ~

2009-01-01T09:03:00.001-08:00

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This time, I wonder what it feels like

To find the one in this life, the one we all dream of

But dreams just aren't enough

So I'll be waiting for the real thing, I'll know it by the feeling

The moment when we're meeting, will play out like a scene

Straight off the silver screen

So I'll be holding my own breath, right up 'til the end

Until that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with

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Cause nobody wants to be the last one there

Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares

Someone to love with my life in their hands

There's gotta be somebody for me like that

Cause nobody wants to do it on their own

And everyone wants to know they're not alone

There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere

There's gotta be somebody for me out there

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Tonight, out on the street, out in the moonlight

And dammit this feels too right, it's just like deja vu

Me standing here with you

So I'll be holding my own breath, could this be the end

Is it that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with

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Cause nobody wants to be the last one there

Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares

Someone to love with my life in their hands

There's gotta be somebody for me like that

Cause nobody wants to do it on their own

And everyone wants to know they're not alone

There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere

There's gotta be somebody for me out there

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You can't give up, looking for a diamond in the rough

You never know, when it shows up, make sure you're holding on

Cause it could be the one, the one you're waiting on

Cause nobody wants to be the last one there

And everyone wants to feel like someone cares

Someone to love with my life in their hands

There's gotta be somebody for me, ohhh

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Nobody wants to do it on their own

And everyone wants to know their not alone

There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere

There's gotta be somebody for me out there

Nobody wants to be the last one there

Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares

There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere

There's gotta be somebody for me out there

Frustration Babbling ~

2009-01-01T05:57:00.000-08:00

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Probably the worst thing in the World!!

Would be someone stopping me from my dreams.

My Love, my Future Life.

From Something i know i can succeed in life with.

Do you guys know how would that feel?

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Let me ask you guys out there a question.

If someone close to you no matter who..

your parents,

your boy/girlfriend,

your relatives,

your brother &/or sister,

your, i don't know.. Dog!

told you, you would never go,

see, or be what you wanted.

How would you feel about that? && How in the world would you react?

How would you feel if your parents told you

you could never date that girl/boy?

Because, he/she's too poor/old/lazy/abusive or whatever other reasons.

But you know you really love him/her?

&& you know the real person deep inside.

So does their appearance really matter?

Does outward appearance means sooo.. much more instead of what's inside?

What ever happened to

"Beauty is only skin deep in the eye of the Beholder?"

So what.. that doesn't apply?

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Don't you get freaking pissed off

when someone tells you one thing but then also tells you another?

i freaking HATE IT when someone contradicts themselves.

like: find someone that will be able to provide for your family in the future.

but the person Freaking Falls in Love with a BUM!

Bum : Loser. Poor. etc.

&& He/She calls it WISDOM!

WOOOOOOOOW!

Impartation of Knowledge sure makes your confused.

Ugh, you can't make right, left, heads or tails with it!

Would you mind if you just

SHUT UP! Sheeeesh!

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Sorry i'm kind of in a bad mood right now.

frustrated over personal matters.

Kind of involving what i'm talking about.

&& i'm not actually talking about boy/girlfriends.

It's more serious in my situation.

I'm just speaking in general.

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Come on, We are still human

sometimes what i think is right,

&& just because someone older than me told me other wise

Doesn't mean he is ALWAYS right, right?

I met people who are older than me, get into more deep shit than i could ever imagine.

I'M NOT COMPARING!

i'm just stating facts that says,

older people are NOT ALL THAT'S THEIR CRACKED UP TO BE!

Most of them are pretty much Screwed in life.

So who can we trust?

Besides our parents.

Family members/relatives.

Brother/Sister.

Cousins.

Your freaking Grandpa/Grandma [their old enough]

Friends.

Who do we have left?

God.

I know God is the Way && all.

So we should seek him daily

But what about when you don't get answers?!!

I know i should be patient && all, but sometimes..

it gets hard!

Even if you know what he's going to say.

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SOmetimes this gets so frustrating!!

especially when things you've planed hadn't gone your way.

Sucky.. i know..

Well i hope you guys have a better day than me.

Or better yet, i hope you get me =).

See ya, Peace!

Lady GaGa - Just Dance ~

2008-12-29T05:11:00.003-08:00

[Feat. Colby O'Donis & Akon]

RedOne, Konvict

GaGa, oh-oh, eh

I've had a little bit too much, much

All of the people start to rush, start to rush by

How does he twist the dance? Can't find a drink, oh man

Where are my keys? I lost my phone, phone

What's going on on the floor?

I love this record baby but I can't see straight anymore

Keep it cool, what's the name of this club?

I can't remember but it's alright, a-alright

Just dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm

Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm

Just dance, gonna be okay, d-d-d-dance

Dance, dance, just, j-j-just dance

Wish I could shut my playboy mouth, oh oh oh-oh

How'd I turn my shirt inside out? Inside outright

Control your poison babe, roses have thorns they say

And we're all getting hosed tonight, oh oh oh-oh

What's going on on the floor?

I love this record baby but I can't see straight anymore

Keep it cool, what's the name of this club?

I can't remember but it's alright, a-alright

Just dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm

Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm

Just dance, gonna be okay, d-d-d-dance

Dance, dance, just, j-j-just

When I come through on the dance floor checkin' out that catalog

Can't believe my eyes, so many women without a flaw

And I ain't gon' give it up, steady tryin' to pick it up like a car

I'ma hit it, I'ma hit it and flex and do it until tomorr' yeah

Shawty I can see that you got so much energy

The way you're twirlin' up them hips 'round and 'round

And now there's no reason at all why you can't leave here with me

In the meantime stay and let me watch you break it down

And dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm

Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm

Just dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm

Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm

Just dance, gonna be okay, d-d-d-dance

Dance, dance, just, j-j-just dance

Woo! Let's go!

Half psychotic, sick, hypnotic

Got my blueprint, it's symphonic

Half psychotic, sick, hypnotic

Got my blueprint electronic

Half psychotic, sick, hypnotic

Got my blueprint, it's symphonic

Half psychotic, sick, hypnotic

Got my blueprint electronic

Go! Use your muscle, carve it out, work it, hustle

I got it, just stay close enough to get it

Don't slow! Drive it, clean it, lights out, bleed it

Spend the lasto

(I got it)

In your pocko

(I got it)

Just dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm

Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm

Just dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm

Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm

Just dance, gonna be okay, d-d-d-dance

Dance, dance, just, j-j-just dance

2008-12-25T01:33:00.000-08:00

Yup Yup, i made a video before Thanks Giving

&& this is how it turned out!!

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YES!! i didn't have anything to say.

Plus sorry about the messy room.

I Just came back from KL. =)

&& Here is another video when i was at the party.

We had count down too.

BUt it's not in the video. xD

Check IT! =D

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MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!!

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!

&& A VERY SOON HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

&& for all the chinese asians out there.

in case i forget, Happy CHINESE NEW YEAR!!

haha,

I LOVE HOLIDAYS!!

Whooo Hooo!! ~

Sneak Peek [Dance] ~

2008-12-09T06:01:00.000-08:00

So yes we are having a dance competition this saturday.

I am currently managing two teams,

but they don't know that! lol.

Except the ones who are in.

so here is a little preview of what we have done so far.

&& as if i am going to show you the whole thing.

PFFT!!!

Check it out.

This is my second team, an all girl.

Of Me. Emelia. Joey.

Their the best dancers so far.

&& Honestly, I WANT TO WIN!! haha..

so enjoy. =)

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FUN AIN'T IT! =D

Want to see the whole dance?

THAN GO TO CHOJB!!

We'll be performing on Saturday, YES THIS SATURDAY!!

In Tropical Inn, Johor Bahru.

It is actually a competition, SO COME ON!!

CHEER US ON!!

&& come to ourCity Harvest Outreach Johor Bahru's CHRISTMAS EVENT!!

From the 20th, 21th && 25th of December.

In Tropical Inn, Johor Bahru.

We'll be there, make sure of it.

Go there, your going to have fun && Meet plent of good friends.

Trust me.

See you There!!

Ciaoz Babae!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS && HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!~

Jesse Mccartney - It's Over ~

2008-12-07T09:37:00.000-08:00

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We've run out of words we've run out of time
We've run out of reasons really why we together
We both know it's over baby bottom line
It's best we don't even talk at all
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Don't call me even if I should cross your mind
Hard enough I don't need to hear your voice on my messages
Let's just call it quits it's probably better
So if I'm not returning your calls it's 'cause
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'Cause I'm not comin' back I'm closing the door
I used to be trippin' over missin' you but I'm not anymore
I got the picture phone but baby your picture's gone
Couldn't stand to see your smile every time you dialed
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'Cause it's over
Girl you know it's over this time
So when you call I'm pressin' seven
Don't wanna hear your messages messages
I'm tryn to erase you from my mind
'Cause it's over
I swear girl it's over this time
So don't keep callin' leavin' messages
Don't wanna know where you been
Baby 'cause it's over
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I still wake up every morning quarter to ten
I still eat my cereal right at the kitchen table
I can't even remember how long it's been
No trouble stayin' occupied
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Oh they ask about you whenever I come around
I do what I can not to put my business in the streets
Last thing I need's another episode
Keep conversation short and sweet because
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'Cause I'm not comin' back I'm closing the door
I used to be trippin' over missin' you but I'm not anymore
I got the picture phone baby your picture's gone
Couldn't stand to see your smile every time you dialed
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'Cause it's over
Girl you know it's over this time
So when you call I'm pressin' seven
Don't wanna hear your messages messages
I'm tryna erase you from my mind
'Cause baby it's over
I swear girl it's over this time
So don't keep callin' leavin' messages
Don't wanna know where you been
Baby 'cause it's over
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You know that it's over when the burnin'
And the yearnin' inside your heart ain't there anymore
And you know that you're through when she don't do to you
And move you like the way she moved ya before
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And you wanna pull her close
But your heart has froze
You kiss her but her eyes don't close
Then she goes out of your heart forever
And it hurts you but you know that it's better
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Girl you know it's over
Girl you know it's over this time
So when you call I'm pressin' seven
Don't wanna hear your messages messages
I'm tryna erase you from my mind
'Cause it's over
I swear girl it's over this time
So don't keep callin' leavin' messages
Don't wanna know where you been
Baby 'cause it's over
'Cause it's over
Girl you know it's over this time
So when you call I'm pressin' seven
Don't wanna hear your messages messages
I'm tryna erase you from my mind
'Cause it's over
I swear girl it's over this time
So don't keep callin' leavin' messages
Don't wanna know where you been
Baby 'cause it's over

I'm IN!!!! i'm IN I'm IN i'm IN!!! ~

2008-12-07T08:59:00.000-08:00

Holy Mother of Pearl!!

This is like my most happiest day!!!

[!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I GOT INTO [[[ECU]]] PERTH AUSTRALIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!]

More happier than when i got into TAYLORS College University.

Can you imagine, i would have gone to Adelaide

The most "boring" or so i have heard, place in australia.

if i would have stayed in Taylors

no telling what may happen.

I would have probably regretted something.

Because i kind of got bored in taylors.

Everyone was so FAKE!

yup, well, not everyone, i did find some good people.

Oh well, let's see where this journey take me to now.

I hope it's a good one. =)

Family, the category of friend or foe? ~

2008-12-07T07:14:00.000-08:00

I'm going to be talking about families today.

Now, i am talking about Family in General,

Like it includes your cousins, relatives, aunties,

uncle twice removed to a bunch of odd islands that survive a recession finally decided to reside in Australia, where i shall be seeing him soon

had vodka, X.O and a Whole lot of Alcohol in the last decade but still drinkable?

Yeah, those types =)

Sometimes do you really think that families in general,

could be yours or mine, whoever you are..

are out to get you,

not so supportive of you

but really looking towards your best interests but you don't realize it?

Or the occasional real life..

MY FAMILY IS OUT TO DESTROY ME && MY HAPPINESS!!

WHOOP!

yeah, that happens sometimes.

oh well, no ones perfect, neither can a family be one.

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Unless your their robots in reality were bent on destroying earth because

the robots that you call family is actually

alien technology that has been sent to earth

to spy on us beings so they could plan their invasion && destruction && you were ADOPTED!

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I KNOW!! life is boring isn't it.

Well what you going to do.

So yes anyways, try to erase my wild imaginative train of thought.

&& let's get back to the blog, shall we. =)

So yesh! do you believe some family members/relatives

are actually bitter && waiting for your downfall?

yeah, i get that feeling too sometimes.

But is it just our imagination, or is it real?

Can't really tell,

Unless, you confront your elders && make them tell you what the hell is going on!

Than everything will be fine.

Right? =)

Some families are the BEST!

But some you have no clue what to talk about too?

I don't know, i feel that way sometimes.

You sit at a dinner table, all silent && indifferent

waiting for the dinner to finally be over.

asking you family members how many courses are there.

thinking, should i leave to go to the bathroom.

awkward pauses, odd jesters.

The feeling is undesirable, seriously.

i guess it is like the same as people.

People, we tend to judge one another too quick

we feel uncomfortable to unknown strangers && alone in public.

But shouldn't we be more comfortable with our family members already?

Seeing as how we grew up with some cousins, some uncles && aunties.

Or granddads && mums?

Maybe, we are still strangers in a certain category?

Oh well.

Hopefully i'm not the only one who thinks that.

bye bye Baby.. i will always love u..~

2008-12-01T03:45:00.000-08:00

[7.30 t.o.d] was the time she died..

Super.Sugar.Baby, my Sugar Glider.

It's a like a cross between, a flying squirrel, a badger && a skunk.

It's really tiny && glides, as in it can actually fly.

not really, more like a flying squirrel.

But smaller.

It's an Australian Animal, && illegal [no really sure] in Malaysia

A friend got it for me at a black market.

Don't ask. lol.

She was the cutest best pet ever.

It's lie my dream pet besides dogs.

Okay, I'm an ANIMAL ADDICT.

so sue me, i love them.

I'm am quiet pissed at the moment, because.

it didn't seem like an accidental occurrence

it looked like more of a purposely done plot.

Why do you say i said that, it is probably because.

i recently got a new maid, yes i have a maid,

she helps out in my mum's school, not really at home,

but same difference right.

Well, she is the one that is supposed to take care of our pet animals.

I had 5 dogs, a rabbit, 2 hammies [hamsters] && a Sugar Glider.

My Sugar baby was perfectly fine this morning.

Til she left her in the bloody RAIN!

She is so lazy, Honestly!

Sugar Gliders need sun, heat.

She didn't care!

all she does is tell em how all my animals die, or get away.

i know that doesn't give me the right to blame or accuse her of doing such a crime.

But, she let my rabbit go, so she didn't have to take care of the gardening..

You see my rabbit likes eating the flowers in our garden && my mum && dad always complained about it eating it.

all they did was ask her to take care of it.

&& she sure did!

My hammy Skellie [Pink Roboviski], died because of lack of food.

that she ''FORGOT'' to tell my days ago.

My other hammy Snickers [Black Arabic] died.

lack of food again, without telling me.

SHe was supposed to take care of all my animals

while i was in KL studying!

My parents are so busy && basically my lil sis doesn't give a two cents.

So i am the one who's always hurt. i am the one who hates hearing how my animals die.

I swear, if i had my own place, my animals will be the happiest animals in the world!

I can't believe she turned out so lazy.

cleaning is a mess, she doesn't do anything but eat & sleep.

I think i do more than her!!

Can u imagine she locked my dogs behind so she won't have to clean up after them in front.

Sheesh!! Me pissy totally!

UGH! can't take it..

i just wish for the best && i am never bringing home any more pets for her to kill.

I love u Bunny a.k.a [Bomberman].

I love u Skellie.

I love u Snickers.

I love u SuperSgarBaby.

I love u all && i am so sorry.. <3

New Best/Boyfriend && the Ex Boyfriend..~

2008-11-20T06:43:00.000-08:00

Okay, yes it is true..

on the day i "broke it off"/"started an OR" with my ex boyfriend,

Christopher Lee Couldrey

is the day i got together with Dylan.

Okay, here is the dealiie-O

Dylan and i knew each other about 2 almost 3 years ago

Honestly, i liked him the first time we met

But he had a Girlfriend, and i ain't no Boyfriend Stealer!

So we stayed friends like anyone would

unless your a boyfriend/girlfriend stealer, than that is a different story.

So yes, i was always there for him like a friend should be

He was always there for me when i needed him.

We were so alike, it was uncanny!

Everything i talked about he got it.

Every time we make weird jokes about stuff, anything under the moon

we're the only ones who gets it.

we think alike, we talk alike, which sometimes sounds like babies i must say

but it gets really normal, like we're so comfortable around each other.

i know, we might as well be twins right?

So yeah, we stayed friends.

whenever he had girlfriend problems

i won't go off and tell him he should break up then!

no, i told him what i would love my guy to do.

But apparently, she was cheating on him.

i advised him. i was there for him.

because i loved him as my friend.

.:[this blog might be long i can tell]:.

So once i got together with my boyfriend

He went single within a week.

Great i know..

But Chris wasn't a bad guy, repeat: NOT a bad guy.

He was really sweet =) && still is.

but yeah, we're friends now && forever.

I'm going to see him soon either way.

Or probably a lot.. hmmm... Great..

But back to the story.

Dylan got single && i had a new boyfriend

but i didn't think of it that way.

That Dylan is Single now && should move in for the kill.

Pffft.. As If..

He messaged me one day saying that he was single.

his relationship had been funky for the last few weeks

So she broke it off with him,

plus the girl was a bitch.

She couldn't commit to just one guy.

So after the day i broke it off with Chris.

I Got together with Dylan.

He told me, he had strong connections with me.

He knew he really liked me.

he wanted me..

But didn't know how to tell me..

bla bla bla..

u guys know the drill.

As if it will ever change as time goes on.

So we got together since i liked him so much.

but now on the 23th of November after 8/9 days.

We broke up.

Yup, you heard right. we broke it off.

i decided to be friends.

He said he had hard times being as i was so far away.

&& his parents were complaining && giving hell upon his life..

You see, he wanted to move to me, get a job just for me.

He promised so many things, up to the point, he crashed && burned.

I knew it was going to happen, not saying i did want it too.

But when you right you right. =)

So now, Dyliie, is my bestie, my bestfriend.

...

I do love him.

But we're better of that way.

I should seriously make that line my best phrase when i break up with someone.

[I love you, i do, but i think we're better of friends.]

KEWLNESS!!

&& no, i'm not sappy && sad.. i am perfectly fine =).

...

By the way. they were not really my boyfriends.

as far as i know. I haven't had a proper Boyfriend.

Which is good enough for me.

I have dates, but i have never really committed.

So when i say my boyfriend. He really just is my boyfriend.

Cause, we haven't kissed, hugged && all that jazz.

So please do not label me as a slut.

I date, when i know the guy is right.

i'll call him Hubby. NOT BOYFRIEND.

Boyfriends to me are just - Boy-Friends.

Most of my friends who knows me

Knows whoever my boyfriend is, their just friends =) in a dating form.

Just making sure people i don't know reading this blog.

Knows i am not a slut.

...

Oh yes, && my Ex Boyfriend Misses me like hell.

Well, we've been together since August 9th

Up till the 14th November, so we're kinda attached.

We still talk && laugh etc.

but i can see it in his eyes he misses me.

He wrote:

-As i sit here talking to you. i don't know whether to frown or smile,

all i know is i miss you. wo ai ni.-

He purposely went all out to tell me he loved me in chinese.

i remebered it was hilarious when he first said it.

We'll see, cause we're still in an OR =)..~

...

Thanks for reading =)

See ya..

God Bless.

Hop your life is as fun as mine! haha..

Drama.Drama.Drama.

But life wouldn't be fun without it, don't you agree? =)

On A Break, OR Much? ~

2008-11-14T02:56:00.001-08:00

Well, it finally happened,

i have been thinking about breaking up with my boyfriend to be honest.

I Do Love Him, i do. But the fact that we can't see each other or talk right.

Coz calls to Australia or here is like a BOMB.

But yeah, i initiated that we become friends && he obviously freaked at first..

But after a long talk he finally agreed.

I need him to concentrate on his family.

&& we did agree to be in an OR = Open relationship.

So if we find another, we stay friends.

If we still have feelings for each other, we could always hook up again,

I guess we loved each other more like friends

Due to the taking care of like bro && sis mode.

We hardly were intimate.

Mostly just fooling around, trashing the place, having well, FUN!

Not very "lovey dovey" right?

Not very lovers like either.

He was my best friend, end of story.

&& i don't need judgment from you guys reading this.

Now the only song for this feeling is.. Always be My Baby ~

I will miss the times we had.

But i think we will enjoy it more as friends =).

We were as one babe

For a moment in time

And it seemed everlasting

That you would always be mine

...

Now you want to be free

So I'm letting you fly

Cause I know in my heart babe

Our love will never die

No!

...

You'll always be a part of me

I'm a part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

...

I ain't gonna cry no

And I won't beg you to stay

If you're determined to leave girl

I will not stand in your way

But inevitably you'll be back again

Cause ya know in your heart babe

Our love will never end no

...

You'll always be a part of me

I'm part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

...

I know that you'll be back girl

When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh

I know that, you'll be right back, babe

Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time

...

You'll always be a part of me

I'm part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....

...

You'll always be a part of me (you will always be)

I'm part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on (we will linger on....)

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

Always be my baby =) ~

A Sudden Ending To One Who Was Loved ~

2008-11-13T05:06:00.000-08:00

...

An Unfortunate Sad happening happened today,

as my boyfriend's Biological mother just passed away.

My boyfriend has a different past you see,

A past that cannot compare to others.

But it doesn't make him any different.

It doesn't make him any plain or dull,

&& Neither will i talk about his past.

but i do feel pain for him,

i do feel sad,

&& i want to be there for him at his time of need.

But sadly i can't,

due to the fact that i am not where he is now.

i wish he or i were still near together.

i wish he && i were still holding each other.

But due to our studies we were forced to be apart.

i made him leave for his future.

&& i was going to him anyways.

So all we do is wait.

Wait until we meet like lost strangers in a crowd when we first met.

Wait until the day he holds me in his arms like never before.

But i know i love him though, how many can actually say that?

I mean i am really careful in my judgements

to be honest i might not seem so.

i might seem wild && too outgoing.

i admit i am daring, i admit i am random,

but i am a true classy lady in && out,

&& hoped to be respected && treated so.

My Boyfriend knows it,

&& he respects me the way i am supposed too.

Maybe that's why i love him?

Maybe not, but one thing i know, i love my boyfriend to bits.

&& Love has no boundaries.

...

I Love You Babe && i'll always be there whenever you need me.

I Love you Baby, i will always do.

...

.:R.I.P Mrs. Pen Couldrey:.

Even If I Never Knew You. May God Be With You.

&& How you were hurt, may he be punished for what he has done.

Presentation of the Positions.. Sex Positions xD ~

2008-10-07T01:46:00.000-07:00

I cannot deny it! it is true, we did do a presentation on Sex Positions.

Yup you read it right =]

[!! S.E.X P.O.S.I.T.I.O.N.S. !!] lol.

HAH, Gawd it was Funny As A Person ROFL-ING!!!

We could not stop laughing the whole way.

Well i came in late from mornings class. we ate breakfast && all that.

So i went in late due to things i needed to do.

But the lecturers are really kewl about it.

though it is still a bad thing.

...

So yes, i went into class, not picking my partners.

i had no option but to go to the team with less members in it.

i so wished i could have chosen a team then i would not have presented on SEX POSITIONS!

but honestly it was hilarious && plus i made even more friends.

i was pretty worth it.

but it was a 40 second presentation.

so it was not all that bad.

poor lecturuer, he is like the only MALE in our class.

you see, we have been split into 2 different groups.

due to our Major Number in Students, but it was mostly girls.

so poor lecturer Anan, age: 28, a Tall, Dark, Handsome, though indian,

but sadly married,

or at least we think he is?

Or so he portrays. he never likes giving out secrets,

he is our Information to Technology lecturer, but looks nothing like a computer nerd! lol.

but he is sure as hell fun to laugh with && he is able to put up with our,

well their lame, corny, cheesy jokes.

i hardly want to do anything to the poor fellow.

apparently he gets it in every class.

Girls fall for him fast! grrr-rawr! lol.

But i'm probably the only girl that doesn't want t notice him.

Maybe that's why i get all the attention from him! ew.

...

imagine, during exam hours,

like our Mid-Term exams, when it is supposed to be quiet

peacefulness && all, up to the point where you can hear a pin dropping on the floor.

or so they say. He knew what we were going to be like a Fish Market xD.

So he insisted that we SHUT UP! or fail (F).

which reminds me of our Economics lecturer,

now he is a blur case.

he confuses me for another Michelle

&& can not seem to tell the difference every time i walk into class,

thinking i am supposed to be in another clas time.

Hello? schedule says this time, me come this time . =] Ka-peesh?

...

Okay out of the topic there, so yes back to my story of the handsome lecturer Anan.

He gets taunted && interrogated by every girl in the room.

So during finals, girl pop out question like.

Sir, are you wearing Daviddoff Perfume?!

Sir, you shoe size is 10 right?!

Sir, you like movies?

Sir, are you really married?

Sir, Your pants size is 34 right?

Sir, you bough your pants from Jusco right?

Sir, you shirt is from seed right?

bla bla bla.. etc.

In every 2 minutes!

My.. wonder how he takes it in every class?

...

So yes, while we were doing our presentation.

All the girls were staring t him.

&& he was basically laughing along

&& blushing. haha, or so we think.

yup, that's all i have today.

Write next time.

see ya'll

Thanks for reading =) ~

My Current favourite Song =D enjoy! ~

2008-10-04T09:35:00.001-07:00

There's a little creepy house

In a little creepy place

Little creepy town

In a little creepy world

Little creepy girl

With her little creepy face

Saying funny things that u have never heard

Do you know what it's all about

Are you brave enough to figure out

Know that you could set your world on fire

If you are strong enough to leave your doubts

Feel it

Breathe it

Believe it

And you'll be walking on air

Go try

Go fly

So high

And you'll be walking on air

You feel this

unless you kill this

Go on

And you're forgiven

I knew that

I could feel that

I feel like

I am walking on air

She has a little creepy cat

And a little creepy bat

Little rocking chair and an old blue hat

That little creepy girl

Oh she loves to sing

She has a little gift

An amazing thing

With her little funny eyes of hazel

With her little funny old blue hat

She will go and set the world on fire

No one ever thought she could do that

Feel it

Breathe it

Believe it

And you'll be walking on air

Go try

Go fly

So high

And you'll be walking on air

You feel this

unless you kill this

Go on

And you're forgiven

I knew that

I could feel that

I feel like

I am walking on air

Flitter up

and Hover down

Be all around

You know that I love you, go on

Feel it

Breathe it

Believe it

And you'll be walking on air

Go try

Go fly

So high

And you'll be walking on air

You feel this

unless you kill this

Go on

And you're forgiven

I knew that

I could feel that

I feel like

I am walking on air

Honestly : So Basically ~

2008-09-15T08:29:00.000-07:00

Okay, Honestly, this is my blog, yes, true.

But i haven't been paying attention to it much..

like what you have been reading here right now in this open space of the Internet

called BLOGSPOT..

is actually incomplete.

I have load of POSTS i have not yet to complete but yet i dare start a new one.. odd..

&& your probably wondering "why are you typing this Sh*t instead of finishing the rest?"

Well brainiac, i am just to Damn LAZY! There's like over a Thousand i haven't finished, as if i'm going to finish it in one night?!

So Basicallyi am going to finish it, just not sure when && how many at one go..

anyways, stay tuned =]

Loads Of Love : <3>

~Michelle~

&& Yesh. I'm Taken.. It's Confirmed firm & Official.. ~

2008-08-26T10:27:00.000-07:00

...

Well, i forgot about blogging about my new found boyfriend.

Yes, he's That guy in the picture.

I have finally been able to look a guy in his eyes && say, okay, let's do this! lol.

Well, don't think too far, it is just starting a new relationship.

Honestly, the way we expected to get together was a lil different.

i, which i can say a lil old fashion when it comes to relationships. i would usually

wait for the guy to ask me out on a date, continue dating for awhile && then tells me he wants me as his girlfriend.

Unlike Chris, he thought we were going with the flow, when we click means it's done,

we're together!! YAY, let's celebrate!!

PFFT!! as if..

let's just say we had miscommunication that actually led us to being together.

i indirectly said "i love him"

due to the fact that i haven't spoken to him in like two days.

he said he was feeling unloved.

That he needed me [playfully].

All i replied [playfully] was saying.. "aww, no fret i love u" && smile =].

if anyone who is readin this right now, now that i love everyone && will tell everyone i love them

in a bro && sis manner of course.

i think he took it the wrong way, kept quiet for awhile && became a little happier.

So after talking && more talking, he would suddenly end the conversation to "i love you."

&& i as a girl, would be confused, "what do you mean?"

he decided to tell me he loved me && he wanted to be together.

After finding out what we expected each other to do, which means by ways of being bf && gf.

He finally said, "i'll ask you, would you want to be together?"

Honestly, i kept quiet for awhile.

But this was Chris, the lovable, Funny Gay guy that makes me laugh, love him, && makes me wanna hold him forever. Because whatever he says from his mouth, it's all true, he'll never hurt me or lie.

So of course, i said Yes!

...

Facts About Him:

His name is Chris Lee Couldrey && he is mine =]

He is currently living in Australia, Victoria, Melbourne.
He's Irish with the Aussie Accent [cbh].

He moved there when he was 5.

He is a paramedic, so if i die i blame him for not saving me =D.

He loves Tiesto [Trance, House Music && so on].

He still like listening to Rock music.

He's Lazy as a cat in his bed.

GAY!! heehee..

Favourite colour : Blue - well he made it my fav, so his is black now.
In Loved with me =] aww..

Now that's a line he always uses on me.

But in actually fact, it's the total sam feelings for each other. xD

...

i know this is a question everyone has been dying to know.

Q : How the Hell did i meet him?:

A : Well, it all started of in a party over here in KL.

i knew a friend of his, he had the same buddy as me. He's name was John.

Well let's say how we met was when i was talking to John first, he came into the picture &&

started rambling off some idiotic thing that he wanted to see John do.

Honestly, i thought that was freaking RUDE of him.

John introduced us. then we jsut clicked.

Started talking, hanging out.

He called me, messaged me everyday til he had no credit.

Within past a week or so, more like 5 days, we liked each other.

&& that was that.

...

Q : When did you guys get together?:

A : Met him at a party on the 6th of July, after my finals.

which i needed the break from.

So that means we got together around, July 10th =D

...

Q : Why didn't you tell me?:

A : Err.. i didn't know my private life was supposed to be an OPEN Subject??

Wow thanks for helping me clear things up, that private means Open.

&& Confidential means Gossip.

Seriously.. thank you..

HA.HA, GEE-Golley!! i owe you one!! =.="

&& if i offend my real friends, i'm sorry, no time to tell you &&

be all preppy && shit. lol
Sorry again =]

...

Well as far as i'm concerned, i really do like him,

he makes me laugh, feels loved && i don't know why,

he makes me happy.

he calls me when i'm sad.

He knows exactly when i need him without even me telling him so.
He can see right throught me.

so that is a goood thing right??

Truth be told we actually nerds &&

...

No chains to unlock.

he's free to do what he wants,

He's into what he's got.

he loves me,

he loves you not.

No matter what you do

he ain't never gonna b with you,

he loves me

he loves you not!

...

.:end of story:.

TRIP!!~

2008-08-16T16:31:00.001-07:00

Sho yesh!!! i'm finally going some where else after like a major long-age time since my last flight to some where else.

OmG!! This feels great!!

Currently in Singapore's Airport using their computers.

Cause we came in like two hours earlier. give or take two hours. lol

Greg helped out =]

He was so sweet enough to wake up at 5 in the morning!

Sent us all the way to Singapore.

&& now we're here, checked in, ready to go.

WEEEEE!!

GTG, plane's calling.. see u guys^^~

FM Static - Tonight [My Baby Chris && My Song = 0ur song :)] ~

2008-07-30T21:47:00.000-07:00

I remember the times we spent together

on those drives

We had a million questions

all about our lives

and when we got to New York

everything felt right

I wish you were here with me

tonight

I remember the days we spent together

were not enough

and it used to feel like dreamin'

except we always woke up

Never thought not having you

here now would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up

I need your loving hands to come and pick me up

And every night I miss you

I can just look up

and know the stars are

holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

I remember the time you told me about when you were eight

And all those things you said that night that just couldn't wait

I remember the car you were last seen in

and the games we would play

All the times we spilled our coffees

and stayed out way too late

I remember the time you SAT AND told me about your Jesus

and how not to look back even if no one believes us

When it hurt so bad sometimes

not having you here...

I sing,

"Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up

I need your loving hands to come and pick me up

And every night I miss you

I can just look up

and know the stars are

holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight"

I sing,

"Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up

I need your loving hands to come and pick me up

And every night I miss you

I can just look up

and know the stars are

holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

My Peter Gave Me This Song.. He Just Got Back From His Camp [YAY!!! he's Back :D, He Misses Me So.. Like As I Haven't] ~

2008-07-11T06:59:00.000-07:00

Miley Cyrus - 7 Things ~

2008-07-11T06:46:00.000-07:00

[Don't really fancy Miley Cyrus - but likes her brother trace cyrus woot woot hottie!! - but i kind of like this song :)]

...

I probably shouldn't say this

But at times I get so scared

When I think about the previous

Relationship we shared

It was awesome, but we lost it

It's not possible for me, not to care

And now we're standing in the rain

But nothing's ever gonna change until you hear, my dear

...

The 7 things I hate about you

The 7 things I hate about you, oh you

You're vain, your games, you're insecure

You love me, you like her

You make me laugh, you make me cry

I don't know which side to buy

Your friends, they're jerks

When you act like them, just know it hurts

I wanna be with the one I know

And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do

You make me love you

...

It's awkward and it's silent

As I wait for you to say

What I need to hear nowYour sincere apology

When you mean it, I'll believe it

If you text it, I'll delete it

Let's be clear

Oh I'm not coming back

You're taking 7 steps here

...

The 7 things I hate about you

You're vain, your games, you're insecure

You love me, you like her

You make me laugh, you make me cry

I don't know which side to buy

Your friends, they're jerks

When you act like them, just know it hurts

I wanna be with the one I know

And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do

You make me love you

...

And compared to all the great things

That would take too long to write

I probably should mention

The 7 that I like

The 7 things I like about you

Your hair, your eyes, your old Levi's

hen we kiss I'm hypnotized

You make me laugh, you make me cry

But I guess that's both I'll have to buy

Your hands in mine

When we're intertwined, everything's alright

I wanna be with the one I know

And the 7th thing I like most that you do

You make me love you

You do

Frankie J - Daddy's Little Girl [which I Am :D ] ~

2008-07-08T13:49:00.000-07:00

...

He drops his suitcase by the door

She knows her daddy won't be back anymore

She drags ger feet across the floor

Trying to hold back time, to keep him holding on

And she says

Daddy daddy don't leave,

I'll do anything to keep you

right here with me,

can't you see how much I need you

Daddy daddy don't leave, mommy is saying thing she don't mean

She don't know what she's talking about,

somebody hear me out

Father, listen,

tell him that he's got a home and he don't have to go

Father, save him,

I would do anything in return

I'll clean my room,

try hard in school

I'll be good,

I promise you

Father, Father, I pray to you

...

Now she hasn't slept in weeks

She don't want to close her eyes 'cuz she's scared that he'll leave

They've tried just about everything

But it's getting harder now for him to breath

And she says

Daddy daddy don't leave,

I'll do anything to keep you

Right here with me,

can't you see how much I need you

Daddy daddy don't leave,

the doctors are saying things they don't mean

They don't know what they're talking about,

somebody hear me out

...

Father, listen,

tell him that he's got a home and he don't have to go

Father, save him,

I would do anything in return

I'll clean my room,

try hard in school

I'll be good, I promise you

Father, Father,

I pray to you

...

Please don't let him go,

I'm begging you so

Let him open his eyes,

need a li'l more time

To tell him that I love him more,

than anything in the world

It's daddy's li'l girl

...

Father, listen,

tell him that he's got a home and he don't have to go

Father, save him,

I would do anything in return

I'll clean my room,

try hard in school

I'll be good, I promise you

Father, Father, I pray to you

...

She was daddy's li'l girl

...

Dream - He Loves Me, He Loves You Not~

2008-07-08T11:47:00.000-07:00

[it's really OLD, as in the pop, boy girl band era, i liked it when i was younger. It mant something to me. So here lilsten to it B*tches who ant to steal my Man!]

Give it your all girl
Give it all you got
You can take your chance
And take your best shot
Say what you want girl
Do what you do
He’s never gonna, gonna make it with you

You're pulling petals off a flower
Trying to get your way
Keep pulling 'til it says what you want it to say
Girl you can pick a field of daisies
But he’d still be my baby

I know you can hardly wait 'til I’m away from him
Instinctively I know what you’re thinking
You’ll be giving him an open invitation
But my baby won’t be taken in, no

You can pout your cherry lips
Or try to tempt him with a sweet kiss
You can flut your pretty eyes
He ain’t got his hands tied

Chorus:
No chains to unlock
So free to do what he wants
He’s into what he’s got
He loves me, he loves you not
No matter what you do
He’s never gonna be with you
He’s into what he’s got
He loves me, he loves you not

You’re the kind of girl that's always up for do or dare
Only want him just because he’s there
Always looking for a new ride
The grass is greener on the other side
You’re the kind of girl who’s not used to hearing no
All your lovers try to take you where you wanna go
Doesn’t matter how hard you try
Never gonna get with my guy

Chorus

Doesn’t matter what you do
He’s never gonna be with you
Give it all girl, give it all you got
Take a chance and take your best shot
Say what you want girl
Do what you do
He’s never gonna make it with you

You can pout your cherry lips
Or try to tempt him with a sweet kiss
You can flut your pretty eyes
He ain’t got his hands tied

Chorus 2x

In Love With This Song. Neyo - Go On Girl.~

2008-06-19T01:43:00.002-07:00

I can't get it back

But I don't want it back

I realize that

She don't know how to act

Never been a dumb dude

No I'm not dense

I just had a slight lack of common sense

I was the good guy

She was the bad girl

I'm thinking one girl

She thinking me, Earl, James, and Jimmy

Yup she had plenty

But love for me she didn't have any

I was inviting, her into my heart

But she was out riding, in some other man's car

She was my nighttime, thought I was her star

Guess I was wrong, but see I'm strong

Won't take long for me to move on

Please don't worry 'bout me I'm fine

(Please don't worry 'bout me I'm fine)

Only gonna play the fool one time

(Only gonna play the fool one time)

Trust me when I say

That I'll be okay

Go on girl, go on girl

I can't get it back

But I don't want it back

I realize that

She don't know how to Tried to settle down and look what I get

Thought it was my time but I guess not yet

She at the bar getting drinks from many men

I'm in the house thinking she's with her girlfriends

Trust not knowing, truly not knowing

I look back now like, man, I was open

I was inviting, her into my heart

But she was out riding, in some other man's car

She was my nighttime, thought I was her star

Guess I was wrong, but see I'm strong

Won't take long for me to move on

Please don't worry 'bout me I'm fine

(Please don't worry 'bout me I'm fine)

Only gonna play the fool one time

(Only gonna play the fool one time)

Trust me when I say

That I'll be okay

Go on girl, go on girl

Go on girl

The mistake I made is clear

(We never should've been together)

That's the reason you're not here

(I know that I could do much better)

Not a single salty tear

Not a feeling in my chest

Baby I'm feeling no stress

I'm too fly to be depressed

Go on girl, go on girl

Please don't worry 'bout me I'm fine

(Please don't worry 'bout me I'm fine)

Only gonna play the fool one time

(Only gonna play the fool one time)

Trust me when I say

That I'll be okay

Go on girl, go on girl

Go on girl

Please don't worry 'bout me I'm fine

(Please don't worry 'bout me I'm fine)

Only gonna play the fool one (Only gonna play the fool one time)

Trust me when I say

That I'll be okay

Go on girl, go on girl

Go on girl

Go on girl, go on girl, go on girl

I'll be fine

Miss him so.. :'( ~

2008-06-19T01:43:00.001-07:00

I talk to him everyday, yet i can't get enough of him. is there something wrong with me? && yet he does not mind, coz it's me. or so he says. he could lie to me right? right? I mean, i wonder if he gets tired of me.. Will he get irritated? Will he stop talking to me? IS there a Problem with me?? Yet he says i am Cute, Tall, Perfect && Special. He makes me believe again. Am i playing the fool here or.. i don't know.. man...

The Veronicas - Untouched

2008-06-18T08:54:00.000-07:00

(he makes me feel untouched && that is how i want to feel forever.)

I go ooh ooh, you go ah ah lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala

I wanna wanna wanna get get get what I want

Don't stop

Give me give me give me what you got got

Cause I can't wait wait wait any more more more more

Don't even talk about the consequence

Cause right now you're the only thing that's making any sense to me

And I don't give a damn what they say, what they think think

Cause you're the only one who's on my mindI'll never ever let you leave me

I'll try to stop time for ever, never wanna hear you say goodbye (bye bye bye)

I feel so untouched

And I want you so much

That I just can't resist you

It's not enough to say that I miss you

I feel so untouched right now

Need you so much somehow

I can't forget youI've gone crazy from the moment I met you

UntouchedAnd I need you so much

See you, breathe you, I want to be you

Alalalala alalalala

You can take take take take take time time

To live live the way you gotta gotta live your life

Give me give me give me all of you you

Don't be scaredI'll see you through the loneliness of one more more more

Don't even think about what's right or wrong, wrong or right

Cause in the end it's only you and me and no one else is gonna be around

To answer all the questions left behind

And you and I are meant to be so even if the world falls down today

You've still got me to hold you up up

And I will never let you down (down)

I feel so untouched

And I want you so much

That I just can't resist you

It's not enough to say that I miss youI feel so untouched right now

Need you so much somehowI can't forget youI've gone crazy from the moment I met you

Untouched, untouched, untouched, untouched, untouched

Alalalala alalalala

Untouched

Alalalala alalalala

I feel so untouched

And I want you so much

That I just can't resist you

It's not enough to say that I miss you

I feel so untouched right now

Need you so much somehow

I can't forget youI've gone crazy from the moment I met you

I feel so untouched

And I want you so much

That I just can't resist youIt's not enough to say that I miss you

I feel so untouched right now

Need you so much somehowI can't forget you

I've gone crazy from the moment I met you

Untouched, untouched, untouched

Happy Father's Day!!

2008-06-14T21:50:00.000-07:00

i would like to say, even though i am not there with my father right now, i love my father so dearly. He supports me in whatever i do. i am a totally daddy's Girl! i JUST WANNA SAY I lOVEY lOVE lUB lUV MY DADDY SoOoOoOoOo... MUCH!!!

&& Of Coz My Mum Too!!

i fall for guys out of my country..HARD! i wish i was there right now..~

2008-06-14T20:09:00.000-07:00

Why is it, when you think you have fallen in love, it always has something that pulls you back? Like he's from another country, bla bla bla.. but why is that? i feel so pissed off every time i see the cutest guy on the street or the net, he has to be from or going some where else. Recently, well last night, lol, i talked to my ol' friend Peter-Aun from Belgium. && yes, he's a White Guy. Never Really Fancied Asian/Japanese/Taiwan or whatever asian-looking race there was. I suddenly noticed how he grown so big (muscles) lol, && different, in a good way && he also says so have i. we just spent the night staring at each other, talking about how we look so different now. Peter's my age by the way. i knew him back when we were in High School && kinda forgotten about the poor bloke. Well, apparently, he ain't a lil bloke anymore. He's Big!! in a musclee kind of way.

But he really is doing Big things over there. Like Starting Underground Parties, Concerts, managing bands, that sort of thing, making a HUGE name for HImself. i did actually miss him when i saw he was online. Coz you see, i had 2 msn messenger accounts && never really used the old one anymore, but once i broke up with my Ex now, i realized i did not want to talk to any one now on my msn, so i signed in to my old one, which somehow, i remembered the password too?! Honestly, i do not even remember it now, i just typed && Ba'am chicka wa wa!! there it was opened in front of me. && honestly speaking, i feel better from coming out of that relationship, it was never a relationship to begin with, i was not going to play mummy && stay home just to wait for him. "He had possession issues." && i knew one day, once he's gone, he'll be gone for good. It felt real good to be Free Once more. All i need now is to be cautious, no more trusting guys as easy as i once did.

But i just could not tell my ol' friend the truth of breaking up the same day. && he knew there was something wrong with me. But he did not push. He knows me too well to do anything stupid that will upset me. But the fact we both needed to get to bed. We did not want to. asking each other silly things like, "are you going?" "you going yet?" "i'll go if you go."

We just kept staring at each other through the webcam. Even though there was nothing to say,you know when you get those little pauses in between conversations? We just sat there as if we were stoned. (Love-Stoned)

But he did cheer me up with his guitar playing, told me his band is hitting it Big Time, He just got back from France When i

talked to him. He looked pretty wasted, so i asked. I told him to sleep, he did not want too && when i did not say anything, he said you know why. && i actually did.

After the introducing of what we were up to, he asked if i had a boyfriend. Which clearly last night i had broken it off with, but i did not tell him. I did not even answer that question, but thank God, the Connection spaced out && i apologized for it. && yes, it was accidental, i assure you.

Once i got back online, we got back to talking, soon after that, he suddenly gave me pet names, like "baby", "love","honey" etc. which we never used to do. I said "we" because i was playing with him && i thought he was playing with me as well, you know like when i call "my girls = babes or huns." as in friends. But it got odd after a while,you know that atmosphere you can feel like there something going on.

i asked other questions, until i got to the point where i asked him if he had a gal of his own, he said, "No." i called him a Liar. lol. i mean come on, He's Hot now. "Now." lol. I'm Not saying he is the rebound guy && i am not the type of girl who needs a guy beside her anyways. But Peter has taken an interest in me && i in him too. So i have no clue what is going on now.

Okay, let me describe you what he looks like now, He has long hair, but jagged, you know the type like surfers have. Still above the Shoulders. Blonde. Blue Eyes. Clean. Built body, the three abs going on, sharper features, Good chiseled face structure (bone Jaw). && way taller. White Guy, Rich. He made it all on His own. The most awesome thing that surprised me was that he was totally SxE, which i am. Both HxC && SxE.

If ya'll do not know what SxE means or HxC.

Straight Edge is our life style, be what you are. what you eat, how you keep your body. No Drugs, no cigs (cigarettes), no needles, no nothing! Being Clean inwards && out. When People look at you, they know there is a difference, we do not conform to this world && the material things that keep us tied down (addiction).

&& surprisingly SxE is what Peter is. Because looking at his lifestyle, Underground parties, Concerts, Stereotypical for drugs, sex && toxication. && honestly, i am very much proud of Peter, coz he would never lie to me. Deep down he is still the same peter i once knew before && Thank Goodness the same funny, cute, sexy eyed Peter i come to love now. Except HOTTER! <3

HxC = HardCore. SxE = Straight Edge.

Basically these terms mean the way you live your life. I'm Hardcore because i have been living in a tough world, i fight for myself && for the ones i love && treasure so dearly, believe me when i say that i will be there when you need me. i do not back down no matter what. I'll stand tall && take whatever hits me, but you got to know, you will get it back 100 fold. just a warning, no biggie. :)

-the end-

RIhanna - Take A Bow (Break-Up)

2008-06-14T08:01:00.000-07:00

Go On && Take A Bow.

We're Over..~

How about a round of applause

A standing ovation

You look so dumb right now

Standing outside my house

Trying to apologize

You’re so ugly when you cry

Please, just cut it out

[Chorus]

Don’t tell me you’re sorry cuz you’re not

Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show

You really had me going

But now it’s time to go

Curtain’s finally closing

That was quite a show

Very entertaining

But it’s over now

Go on and take a bow

Grab your clothes and get gone

You better hurry up before the sprinklers come on

Talkin’ about, girl, I love you, you’re the one

This just looks like the re-run

Please, what else is on

[chorus]

Break Ups? Shut Up && deal with it!~

2008-06-14T07:29:00.001-07:00

Obviously this would hurt by now. all i just want is some peace and quiet now. but it seems where ever i head, there are guys after me. i don't mean to sound big headed or that i am in any way. but when i have a boyfriend, it seems more guys wants me. FInally when i broke up, which is just now at 10.30pm, June 14th 2008,i felt totally freedom && refreshed. I know i should feel said && all, but no, i am not. Alright. now you can finally say, "Hands Off Of Guys From Now On."

Well at least for some months, fed up of the whole "i Love You Shit Scene" Ugh. Nothing else to report, hate him so much right now! && yet i was the one who broke up with him.. Haha, victory at one hand, pissed off at another, coz he was being a Jerk at d end. Bloody fellow. said the same thing when my friend broke it off with her Ex on April, "Thanks for the Memories!" Ugh can you guys get more CREATIVE?? Bloody Fall Out boy Song! Sheesh! He was over possessive, not protective, possessive. Annoying, irritating && every time we get quite && comfortable being together, We end up fighting. Yet he still says he "Loves me?" Please! All that Bull-Shit doe not effect me at all. Unless we have been together like 8 months. Honestly,Tom was the best first boyfriend ever. It was my stupidity that led me to say to myself, "Why don't i give it a try, you might not know?" Now, i will never do that again, Ever. I have to do the same thing like i was with Tom. That is why after Tom, i promised myself, ever swore that i would never cry over a guy again, i would never bring myself so low up to the point where i will have no dignity. I would never want a guy back && i would never break my promise. Never Again.

I mean, i would not know if he knew it was coming already. but the first time i looked at him, right into his eyes, after knowing at his attitude, his thinking, his soul. I knew everything was wrong. But some where deep inside me thought that i could change him with my lifestyle, it just made everything worse. && i knew that we were not meant to be. Besides He's a Malaysian. I tried to give the whole Malaysian guys a chance, but i am not meant for them i guess?

But he was the one that made me hate the relationship to begin with. Once he had to see his cousin in Johor. I do not know where, i ended it. he did not wanted to end it. && honestly i was looking for a reason to break-up with him already. && honestly, i have no idea what i am saying!! Sheesh, just speaking gibberish. Whatever. Laterz.

Technical Break Down~

2008-06-05T08:55:00.000-07:00

I missing poems. signing in && typing. but yet i don't. lol. i don't even know why i started blogging in the first place? maybe to be a online diary, where you, the readers get to see what i am up too. yeah, my drawings && work. it was supposed to be for fun and yet it has suddenly become, fun, a hassle && yet i sill do it?! my computer is sill down && i haven't fixed it yet. currently i'm on my friends laptop. not mine :'(. Oh well, more time for myself then && my assignments. sigh.~

Laptop crashed!! Damn My Photos && Shit!!~

2008-05-25T17:44:00.000-07:00

ShaA-eeeyyt!! How can my laptop die on me now? the weird thing is that. I didn't even do anything to it. i was going to scan the com for viruses && everything i have is in there!! Sheesh!! why now? why when i just placed everything in a perfect order, all my videos memories, GONE!!

Let's just hope that they can repair and get my hard disk data back. Please please please!

i called Greg last night as well. he sure was NOT a big help :'(.. but i forgave him, plus he wasn't even listening in on me, he was out in his own little world and me, Nicky && Emelia were shouting n laughing like mad cows!! lol.

Honestly, i think we did make him a lil annoyed && freaked out. but he got us && man, he was mostly silent for the whole conversation && on my dime too!

[Oh Well, let's see what will happen to the Laptop After We're Done]

Dance Competition? Again..~

2008-05-13T23:03:00.000-07:00

Hey Hey Hey.. Guess what? I received a call today. && yup, they called me in for a dance Competition. Well people know me for being a Hip-Hop / Popping / Jazz / Modern Hip-Hop/ Old School Hip-Hop && An all Out Dancer. Well i'm going to show you some videos we did for fun, after dance class, LMAO!!

Serene && Me.

I was honestly pleased to hear that i was going to join a Dance Competition but now it's to test my skills, whether i qualify for this competitions. I mean people have told me about this competition awhile back. But i never would have taught that i would actually be participating? But yeah, i guess i am now, today i submitted my Full Name, Indetity CArd (IC) number && What type of dance i'll be perfoming. Obivuosly Hip_hop / Popping && Breakdance. Well let us see if my breakdancers are even up to it. Sometimes my breakders / Bboys are always either afraid, not up to it or just doing it && at the end saying.. "err.. i don't think we can do it" && quit! Sometimes i really don't want to know what their thinking, but i can't blame all of them, there is one guy that is totally in love with && committed to Breakdance. So i can give porps to him && he's not even the leader? OMG. It really gets frustrating.

It's Going to be at the end of this month && i only have around two 2 Weeks to get ready. A new song, new dance moves, NEW steps, New everything! It is already hard teching Cheerleading on the side, Yup i have a Job, Teaching Cheerleading to little ones. well middle school. && it's not really EASY at ALL! They get so scared && keep wanting to eat all the time. The have no Discipline. But i do love teaching them && hope they will listen more then they eat! lol.

Well there's not much more i can say except Wish ME LUCK && PRAY FOR ME!! Cause i would really Love to WIN!! YAY!!

&& More Other Videos.. LOL. Find me falling!! i fell && got a boo boo LMAO!! xD

I thought this was really kewl!! me && serene doing the same moves!! xD

Lmao!! wait for it.. wait for it!! Watch carefully now.. haha!! xD

-the end-

I'm So Over It!! (Exams)~

2008-05-06T04:25:00.000-07:00

Yes Yes Yes!!!!!! i did it!! It is finally Over!! Stress Free!! GONE!! But then again, here comes another.. :(

Michael Rockz!!~

2008-05-02T08:07:00.000-07:00

Well Yes, This Is Michael. Isn't he cute? haha. Well, this was the guy that stayed up with me && chatted the night away, literally!! Can u actually imagine that? Well, imagine American time 6.58am, but up til the time we said our goodbyes && i had 2 force him to go too by the way, it was about 7.20am. It was so bloody late, that he was yawning all the way. He looked totally exhausted && yeah, lives in America. I wished i was there with him now. We're not together, no, but he is the Funniest, Cutest, Hottest, Sexy, Dancey Cookie ever. Haha. ( Inside Joke )

I miss his Cookie Monsters, I miss his dancing, which i will show you after writing my blog on him&& i miss his singing, he's actually okay for a Vietnamese Chinese American. xD, I met him todae && i felt the need to type about him. I met him on Vampire Freaks, which is a Website for people who looks like me, acts like me, has music genre like me and talk like me. It's the only way that i can communicate to the Proper speaking World, without the "La,Lo,Le,Mah,Bah,Meh.. etc." So finally i get proper && great conversation!! lol. No Offence to my friends though, it's just sometimes, i need a proper

&&understandable conversation.

...

He is like one of my best peeps to talk to now, online that is. I can't believe i found such an interesting person that will do whatever i say, without knowing me properly at all. He actually stayed up to talk to me, with his own will. So i found a really kewl person that is currently in the states : Texas && he sings dances && enjoys a good conversation :]. He's Awesome :D

Belly Peircing??~

2008-04-27T07:54:00.000-07:00

Hah!! if you haven't noticed yet?! I'm the type of person in LOVE with Peircings!! I do not know how people can find it digusting or of the sort? It's totally my one of my likings. If you do not already know, well now you DO!! haha.. I got htis peircing for a while now, but i haven't been consistant with my posts and blogs, not even my V-log. But i'm going to tell you all the

happenings i had for the past 2 months.

Okay, back to the peircing story again. well, my parents didn't know about, coz i kept this secret on the Low. My mum hates body piercing, especially the belly, coz she says it will hurt the "Future Baby." I didn't really understand that? i thought my future baby would be fine or i don't know if i will even have one? But i would Love to have babies with my true love one. && yes people, i'll tell you what i look for in a guy most, i'll even list them out for you here on my blog okay?? FIne, anyhoo..

This is Benji.. He got the same peircing. Yup, a guy doing he's belly, the same as that Venus guy from the old F4. Only chinese people would know who they were. Anyhoo.. Benji said he wanted to do it a long time ago. At first i hated the fact that people who had belly piercing were bitchy. but then, i thought a peircing is just a piercing right? How can it make anyone different? At first i had gotten it before. But it closed up && i never thought that i would do it again? So once i went out with ol' benji and he suddenly decides to tell me that he was going to get a Bloody Belly Piercing??

...

I mean if you call me out && suddenly shocks me by saying that, i would think your Down Right Gay. So i said, "it's your decision, Go ahead if you want." && he did it!! After that it was my turn, so i pierced the belly with him, walked around the mall in a little pain, But Benji Couldn't take IT!! haha, funny ol' Benji && we looked for another piercing to exchange the ones we have right now. We got the same belly peircing ring at the same time. Now that's COOL. && that's what BFF's Should do.

The Way I Felt After My Break Up..~

2008-04-22T21:24:00.000-07:00

la la la la la la.. la la la la la la.. la la la la la la la la..
You took too long, you took too long, you took too long for you to call back
and normally i would just forget that,
except for the fact it was my birthday my stupid birthday.
i played along , i played along, i played along right out of my back.
but obviously my honour was cracked,
what kind of a boyfriend would forget that, who would forget that?

The type of guy who doesn't see what he has until she leaves
don't let me go..
cause without me you know your lost
rise up now or pay the cost
soon you will know.. oh!

Your not living til your living
living with me..ee
your not winning til your winning
winning me..ee.
your not getting til your gettieng
getting me..ee.
your not living til your living
living for me..ee.
This is the potential break up song,
all remember this just one, Oh baby please, please tell me.
/ please just admmit your wrong, please baby please, please baby please.

WE got along, we got along, we got along until you did that,
now all i want is just my stuff back,
do you get that let me repeat that, i want my stuff back

you can send it in a box i don't care just drop it off,
i won't be home..
cause without me you know your lost
minus you i'm really rough
soon you will know..

( Chorus )

You can try, you can try
but i know it will be a lie
without me your gonna die
so you better think clearly, clearly
before you nearly. nearly
miss the situations that's gonna cost you dearly, dearly Come On.

( Chorus )

College, Pre-U, Uni = School...~

2008-04-22T05:11:00.000-07:00

Can i get a "woot woot." College, Pre-University, University, whatever, call it what you want it is still considered as a school. What's there more to possibly be said?? It's just higher and advancing your studies to be better and smarter or just to get a job and earn a living.
Well this is actually the last semester of my Foudations To Mass Communication. I'm doing a Degree course and i gotta say, it's not as easy as i taught. Everyone thinks that Mass Communications students are so lax and dumb coz they couldn't make it i the science stream. Well my dear science people who think that way, YOUR FREAKING WRONG! W.R.O.N.G. it's the same Bloody Thing! Well guess what science People. You Pay Us to Advertise Your SHIT!! Now what do you have to say to that!?!

I'm sorry i'm being a little pissy && bitchy, but i couldn't take it when one of a Freinds freinds told HIm so. Like hell their better than us? You Must Be out of their FREAKING MIND!!

Anyways, the downline is, i hate college, even with friends i find it pointless to talk to them. Okay honestly i has some drama in the first semester, with a certain female named G-wen Or however you spell it. She dared take over my idea, my drawings my AD n proclaimed it was all hers!! Sheesh!! How can a person be so DUMB!! Honestly, that was the last drama i w0uld love to hear. But eventually it got worse. After we never saw that trecherous G-Wen again, Yup she did not ever come back to school. she was the one of the oldest in class, Which in her Sick Twisted little mind apparently believed she could control us all!! i admit i disliked her in so many areas that i shan't describe, but after that whole scenario, i said bye to the last of what i though the end of the drama stage.

But no, it had gotten much worse, way worse. Since people had nothing to gossip about or either talk about, they started radding out on each other! Of coz including me. Actually everyone thought that i was either a PUNK . EMO . ROCKER but mostly GOTHIC. So what if my favourite colour is Black? i'm colourful enough to be anything! Please don't LABEL peopl, it get really, HONESTLY SPEAKING, TIRING, IRRITATING, ANNOYING && i will consider you all as a SNIVELING LIL TWAT that has nothing else BETTER to talk about! I hate it when people starts Labeling, It gets OLD so fast, i'd rather take a ROCK && slam it into the persons Hell Idiotic MOUTH!!

But well i have grown out of all these gossiping && wasting precious time about. with all this rubbish. SO eventually i stopped talking to everyone in College && talked to people more useful of my time. I know i sound really Ignorant right now, but that's just how i feel Now. People have nothing else better to do but gossip. As my friend Leonard would say " Why would i stop gossiping, when their obviously gossiping about me? It's a cycle no one can stop." Well i would say he is right, but does it really mean we should as well? Conformmists. Sheesh!!

Well that's all i shall be blogging about my College now, It gets tiring just to think about all these, but i wanted to write it down && focus on what i'm supposed ti do, STUDY! Whatever you call your School, It's STILL SCHOOL!! && the drama never changes. && here i am thinking people would be more sofisticated than that in High-School. Oh Well. My last sem && i'm off To Aussie.

Thanks for reading. Cioazz~

Back && Gone (My lil SiS' was Back) ~

2008-02-09T08:37:00.000-08:00

Well, basically this is just all about my lil sis Sharky an ABC, American Born Chinese,

well actually she's more like AMC, American Dad and Chinese Mum, so American Mixed Chinese. Yes, she was born in Malaysia, that's how we basically met. Now let me break it down for you, that will kinda explain her being my lil sis and the "Coming back" part.
Once upon a time, long long ago, there lived a.. Naah, i'm not going to start like that. lol. So, my life was kinda like traveling alot, moving up and down, left to right. My family finally landed in Johor Bahru where my dad was born. I'm a K.L (Kuala Lumpur) City Gal. So u can be suprised of my randomness and quirkyness. LMAO.
Anyways, back to the story, i met sharky in Johor Bahru when she was around 12 or so, the same age as my lil sis Emelia.

Emelia (WMK/C)

Sharky (SCMCC)

Yup there they are, so back to the story, we were in Johor Bahru doing our A.C.E now known as CA Resourses (Hate the teachers). It's basically a school. we met in Junior high up to high school && that was the only reason to get to school, meet our besties and hav fun && sometimes cause major damage. You don't wanna know had i was in high school, breaking all the rules were fun. but i've "grwon up" now.. Well, sorta!! lol. I can be still a lil immature, but still learning in life to figure out the solutions to my problems.

&& if your wondering about the letters next to their names, it's their chinese names, which i'm no.. i'm not telling. Yes back to Sharky again, we met in School, Junior HIgh to High School, Emelia && Sharky are the same age except diffferent birthdays, Emelia is an April Baby like me and Sharky is a December Baby. They met in school && gotten to love each other so much til they became best
friends, from best friends to the bestest of friends and from then on Sharky became my lil sis' best sista,
which means that from then onwards, Sharky would always stay over go out whenever we do, traveled together.. etc bla bla bla.
So from that point on, i cared for her too && started to take care of her when she was in need. We became family after that, so ever since then up til now we still keep in contact, online,the phone, whatever possible.

After a few years past, her real family had some problems, parents divorced and dad found a new wife, Alina from Russia, Ex model. both parents got married to other people, mum stays in America && dad is posted everywhere his job says to go. She had to go to Russia, America, Kuala Lumpur && we never got to see her.
But Once she went to Russia, she had to come back coz her Visa expired.
So off they went on the quikest time plane they couold find, coz the government told them it
was tonight at that samte day. She actually came on her birthday, which her party was canceled in Russia. So she reached Kuala Lumpur, where i am studying now && the story unfolds.

I was so happy that she was here, but my lil sis Emelia hadly saw her, since she was living in Johor Bahru. So it was usually me && Sharky. Everyday after college classes end, i would take a cab or the trian to get to the city and hang out with her. That was how much i missed her. We watched movies and went shopping, bought same stuffs and enjoyed each others company.
It was too good to be true.
But sadly after a minth past && on febuary 4th, she had to get back to school in Russia. && that was the end to our reuinion.

Only family can be trusted && would try not to do anything to hurt you, it's an old video but i really love it, coz it proves sisters will always be there, no matter what, we'll always help each other, coz we're family. blood related.

Story of my College && Love Life.. ~

2008-01-27T09:21:00.000-08:00

So basically, i am going to go back in time. To the first day i stepped foot in college and the new years, and tell you my story from there. Well besides the fact that i am in college. i have loads more to tell you from last years dramatic and unforgettable experiences. && it's my 1st time blogging, so comment alright!

God! i was so happy to finally get out of the house and start a new, fresh life as a college girl! from the 1st day of college, we had Orientation. i met some awesome people, who turned out to be my friends for the 1st semester. there was only 20++ of us in my class, which is somehow the smallest group of our intake. The college told us so. I'm in Taylor's University College by the way and i am still enjoying my life here! I met so many people, made some close friends that i know i can trust, made some enemies, the drama, popularity contests.. etc. Like i always say, "High School Never Ends ." I met great College friends. Some of us even had Photography Sessions with me as the photpgrapher. (www.S.L.A.M.deviantart.com) Awesome is what they are. Everything was the same except the fact that i was now living on my own, no more parents to clean up my mess, no more maid to clean up after you. INDEPENDENT ALL THE WAY BABY!! lol.

Aside from my new found life, i also found something or someone else.

I'm going to tell you something that only a handful knows about. i got myself a boyfriend while i was in Kuala Lumpur doing my College in my 1st semester. Notice when i said "HAD", yup, he's now my Ex, it
only lasted for a month or so . He is a french Moroccan guy. No one knew why i dated the bloody fellow, only God i guess, but I'll tell you the reasons later after the story.. The day i met the fellow was on November 11 of 2007. At first i thought i was able to like the fellow because he was the sweetest thing you could imagine, he treated me so nice and i felt so secured with0 him, i forgotten about my boyfriend in America (Tom Mark Kingsley).

&& this is..
(Lucas Ramo Omar Laarif)

Don't tell me who looks better, cause i know.
&& to tell you the truth, i was deeply in love with Tom && i still am, && he still loves me back too. But we know now that i will not work out.
Yes i had a boyfriend in America when i met him and he knew about Tom, but he did not care. You see, i had problems (trust issues) with tom, so he and i
were in the midst of breaking up. Tom is mixed as well, i don't
know why i fall for mixed guys??
He is Malaysian and American Mixed. So i met him the same way as Lucas. Tom kept on moving
up and down, so i decided to end it, which i still regret til now. It's not that i could not handle Long Distance Relationships, it was the trust he and i had had broken since we moved away from each other.
Tom and i are friends now, and i still can tell him anything in the world and he will be there for me.

When i finally.. thought i had my mind made up and went for Lucas, i dumped
Tom straight away, without hesitation. O, his name is (Lucas) Ramo Omar Laarif and yes i am aware that he is a Muslim, which i converted into a Christian, thus having the name Lucas. Being with him has actually made me regret ever letting
go of Tom and i had a lot of bullshit to
come since
Lucas entered my life. He and i met each other at a shopping mall in K.L Sungai Wang, Mcdz. At 1st i met him through a friend in VampireFreaks.com

and again yes i am aware i met him online. I knew my friend from VF long ago while she was still in Malaysia. She moved to America Californiai after half a term when we were 16 in High School.

The Thing is, she got to know him through online as well, but he decided to move to Malaysia because he knew we were here. After knowing him for a few days, he actually said HE LOVES ME!! Who the hell says "I LOVE YOU!" after a few days being together?? Come on!! From that day on, everything went bad and sour.

At first he told me his father was a Lying Son of a Bitch Bastard Cheater. So for a while he could stand his father bringing home different girls to sleep with. One Night he could not take it anymore and decided to tell his father off. He told me what he did and he and his dad had some problems and was kicked out of his place, He had no where to go? What did you expect me to say?? All those times while he was going on and on, i was thinking
" WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING WITH THIS GUY??"
I have this certain standard when it comes to guys. They must make me happy, laugh, safe and loved, which is very easy to do. I
don't really care if he would be a
>>>>>>>> RICH BASTARD<<<<<<
with loads of dough to splash around, as long as you can provide
for me, I'm happy :).

I had to break up with him 3 times before i finally stood my ground and said NO MORE!! I kept But you see he.. O man! he had no money, i fed him for almost a month. i felt like i had a child to take care of. he was insensitive. and kept on telling me my place sucks that he could get me a real home with a car... bla bla bla.. Yeah Right!! At 1st i believed him, waiting for the day that he would take care of me, not the
other way around. Sooner than not my
feelings for him changed, to like into annoyance, then i realized to hell with it, i can't take care of a 21 year old guy that wines a lot! he's worse than a baby!! All he could think about was how famous he would get and how rich he is in France. Hello! Wake up and smell the Toxicated air of Malaysia!! We're not in France!!

&& i kept on forgiving him, for i don't know what reasons until i needed to stand firm and say what i mean. I did not love him anymore, he knew it all along, he just wanted me. I even introduced him to my Parents. Yes, i brought him home to Johore Bahru. My parents told me he was out to get my money because he had none now, since his father kicked him out, but i did not believe them. because he liked me way before that. Although i did ponder on it, but it was not the fact that i listened to my parents, although i dop remember, it was because of the annoyance he gave me that i broke up with him.

So the reasons i had him as my boyfriend was, i pitied him, i wanted to help him because had no place to go, he "Loved" me and i really pitied him.

Reasons i now hate him! :

i had to hang out with him every single day.
i could not see my friends, leading me to lose touch with them.
he was very clingy.
he was jealous of every guy i talked to.
i could not trust me.
i had to take care of him like i had a baby!!

..The End..
so that was what happened to me on November 11 - December 10 of 2007..