Jesse Mccartney - It's Over ~

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We've run out of words we've run out of time 
We've run out of reasons really why we together 
We both know it's over baby bottom line 
It's best we don't even talk at all 
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Don't call me even if I should cross your mind 
Hard enough I don't need to hear your voice on my messages 
Let's just call it quits it's probably better 
So if I'm not returning your calls it's 'cause 
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'Cause I'm not comin' back I'm closing the door 
I used to be trippin' over missin' you but I'm not anymore 
I got the picture phone but baby your picture's gone 
Couldn't stand to see your smile every time you dialed 
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'Cause it's over 
Girl you know it's over this time 
So when you call I'm pressin' seven 
Don't wanna hear your messages messages 
I'm tryn to erase you from my mind 
'Cause it's over 
I swear girl it's over this time 
So don't keep callin' leavin' messages 
Don't wanna know where you been 
Baby 'cause it's over 
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I still wake up every morning quarter to ten 
I still eat my cereal right at the kitchen table 
I can't even remember how long it's been 
No trouble stayin' occupied 
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Oh they ask about you whenever I come around 
I do what I can not to put my business in the streets 
Last thing I need's another episode 
Keep conversation short and sweet because 
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'Cause I'm not comin' back I'm closing the door 
I used to be trippin' over missin' you but I'm not anymore 
I got the picture phone baby your picture's gone 
Couldn't stand to see your smile every time you dialed 
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'Cause it's over 
Girl you know it's over this time 
So when you call I'm pressin' seven 
Don't wanna hear your messages messages 
I'm tryna erase you from my mind 
'Cause baby it's over 
I swear girl it's over this time 
So don't keep callin' leavin' messages 
Don't wanna know where you been 
Baby 'cause it's over 
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You know that it's over when the burnin' 
And the yearnin' inside your heart ain't there anymore 
And you know that you're through when she don't do to you 
And move you like the way she moved ya before 
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And you wanna pull her close 
But your heart has froze 
You kiss her but her eyes don't close 
Then she goes out of your heart forever 
And it hurts you but you know that it's better 
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Girl you know it's over 
Girl you know it's over this time 
So when you call I'm pressin' seven 
Don't wanna hear your messages messages 
I'm tryna erase you from my mind 
'Cause it's over 
I swear girl it's over this time 
So don't keep callin' leavin' messages 
Don't wanna know where you been 
Baby 'cause it's over 
'Cause it's over 
Girl you know it's over this time 
So when you call I'm pressin' seven 
Don't wanna hear your messages messages 
I'm tryna erase you from my mind 
'Cause it's over 
I swear girl it's over this time 
So don't keep callin' leavin' messages 
Don't wanna know where you been 
Baby 'cause it's over 

I'm IN!!!! i'm IN I'm IN i'm IN!!! ~

Holy Mother of Pearl!!

This is like my most happiest day!!!

[!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I GOT INTO [[[ECU]]] PERTH AUSTRALIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!]

More happier than when i got into TAYLORS College University.

Can you imagine, i would have gone to Adelaide

The most "boring" or so i have heard, place in australia.

if i would have stayed  in Taylors

no telling what may happen.

I would have probably regretted something.

Because i kind of got bored in taylors.

Everyone was so FAKE!

yup, well, not everyone, i did find some good people.

Oh well, let's see where this journey take me to now.

I hope it's a good one. =)

Family, the category of friend or foe? ~

I'm going to be talking about families today.

Now, i am talking about Family in General,

Like it includes your cousins, relatives, aunties,

 uncle twice removed to a bunch of odd islands that survive a recession finally decided to reside in Australia, where i shall be seeing him soon

had vodka, X.O and a Whole lot of Alcohol in the last decade but still drinkable? 

Yeah, those types =)

Sometimes do you really think that families in general,

could be yours or mine, whoever you are..

are out to get you,

not so supportive of you

but really looking towards your best interests but you don't realize it?

Or the occasional real life..

MY FAMILY IS OUT TO DESTROY ME && MY HAPPINESS!!

WHOOP!

yeah, that happens sometimes.

oh well, no ones perfect, neither can a family be one.

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Unless your their robots in reality were bent on destroying earth because

the robots that you call family is actually 

alien technology that has been sent to earth

to spy on us beings so they could plan their invasion && destruction && you were ADOPTED!

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I KNOW!! life is boring isn't it.

Well what you going to do.

So yes anyways, try to erase my wild imaginative train of thought.

&& let's get back to the blog, shall we. =)

So yesh! do you believe some family members/relatives

are actually bitter && waiting for your downfall?

yeah, i get that feeling too sometimes.

But is it just our imagination, or is it real?

Can't really tell,

Unless, you confront your elders && make them tell you what the hell is going on!

Than everything will be fine.

Right? =)

Some families are the BEST!

But some you have no clue what to talk about too?

I don't know, i feel that way sometimes.

You sit at a dinner table, all silent && indifferent

waiting for the dinner to finally be over.

asking you family members how many courses are there.

thinking, should i leave to go to the bathroom.

awkward pauses, odd jesters.

The feeling is undesirable, seriously.

 i guess it is like the same as people.

People, we tend to judge one another too quick

we feel uncomfortable to unknown strangers && alone in public.

But shouldn't we be more comfortable with our family members already?

Seeing as how we grew up with some cousins, some uncles && aunties.

Or granddads && mums?

Maybe, we are still strangers in a certain category?

Oh well.

Hopefully i'm not the only one who thinks that.

bye bye Baby.. i will always love u..~

[7.30 t.o.d] was the time she died..

Super.Sugar.Baby, my Sugar Glider.

It's a like a cross between, a flying squirrel, a badger && a skunk.

It's really tiny && glides, as in it can actually fly.

not really, more like a flying squirrel.

But smaller.

It's an Australian Animal, && illegal [no really sure] in Malaysia

A friend got it for me at a black market.

Don't ask. lol.

She was the cutest best pet ever.

It's lie my dream pet besides dogs.

Okay, I'm an ANIMAL ADDICT.

so sue me, i love them.

I'm am quiet pissed at the moment, because.

it didn't seem like an accidental occurrence

it looked like more of a purposely done plot.

Why do you say i said that, it is probably because.

i recently got a new maid, yes i have a maid, 

she helps out in my mum's school, not really at home,

but same difference right.

Well, she is the one that is supposed to take care of our pet animals.

I had 5 dogs, a rabbit, 2 hammies [hamsters] && a Sugar Glider.

My Sugar baby was perfectly fine this morning.

Til she left her in the bloody RAIN!

She is so lazy, Honestly!

Sugar Gliders need sun, heat.

She didn't care!

all she does is tell em how all my animals die, or get away.

i know that doesn't give me the right to blame or accuse her of doing such a crime.

But, she let my rabbit go, so she didn't have to take care of the gardening..

You see my rabbit likes eating the flowers in our garden && my mum && dad always complained about it eating it.

all they did was ask her to take care of it.

&& she sure did!

My hammy Skellie [Pink Roboviski], died because of lack of food.

that she ''FORGOT'' to tell my days ago.

My other hammy Snickers [Black Arabic] died.

lack of food again, without telling me.

SHe was supposed to take care of all my animals

while i was in KL studying!

My parents are so busy && basically my lil sis doesn't give a two cents.

So i am the one who's always hurt. i am the one who hates hearing how my animals die.

I swear, if i had my own place, my animals will be the happiest animals in the world!

I can't believe she turned out so lazy.

cleaning is a mess, she doesn't do anything but eat & sleep.

I think i do more than her!!

Can u imagine she locked my dogs behind so she won't have to clean up after them in front.

Sheesh!! Me pissy totally!

UGH! can't take it..

i just wish for the best && i am never bringing home any more pets for her to kill.

I love u Bunny a.k.a [Bomberman].

I love u Skellie.

I love u Snickers.

I love u SuperSgarBaby.

I love u all && i am so sorry.. <3

New Best/Boyfriend && the Ex Boyfriend..~

Okay, yes it is true..

on the day i "broke it off"/"started an OR" with my ex boyfriend,

Christopher Lee Couldrey

is the day i got together with Dylan.

Okay, here is the dealiie-O

Dylan and i knew each other about 2 almost 3 years ago

Honestly, i liked him the first time we met

But he had a Girlfriend, and i ain't no Boyfriend Stealer!

So we stayed friends like anyone would

unless your a boyfriend/girlfriend stealer, than that is a different story.

So yes, i was always there for him like a friend should be

He was always there for me when i needed him.

We were so alike, it was uncanny!

Everything i talked about he got it.

Every time we make weird jokes about stuff, anything under the moon

 we're the only ones who gets it.

we think alike, we talk alike, which sometimes sounds like babies i must say

but it gets really normal, like we're so comfortable around each other.

i know, we might as well be twins right?

So yeah, we stayed friends.

whenever he had girlfriend problems

i won't go off and tell him he should break up then!

no, i told him what i would love my guy to do.

But apparently, she was cheating on him.

i advised him. i was there for him.

because i loved him as my friend.

.:[this blog might be long i can tell]:.

So once i got together with my boyfriend

He went single within a week.

Great i know..

But Chris wasn't a bad guy, repeat: NOT a bad guy.

He was really sweet =) && still is.

but yeah, we're friends now && forever.

I'm going to see him soon either way.

Or probably a lot.. hmmm... Great..

But back to the story.

Dylan got single && i had a new boyfriend

but i didn't think of it that way.

That Dylan is Single now &&  should move in for the kill.

Pffft.. As If..

He messaged me one day saying that he was single.

his relationship had been funky for the last few weeks

So she broke it off with him,

plus the girl was a bitch.

She couldn't commit to just one guy.

So after the day i broke it off with Chris.

I Got together with Dylan.

He told me, he had strong connections with me.

He knew he really liked me.

he wanted me..

But didn't know how to tell me.. 

bla bla bla..

 u guys know the drill.

As if it will ever change as time goes on.

So we got together since i liked him so much.

but now on the 23th of November after 8/9 days.

We broke up.

Yup, you heard right. we broke it off.

i decided to be friends.

He said he had hard times being as i was so far away.

&& his parents were complaining && giving hell upon his life..

You see, he wanted to move to me, get a job just for me.

He promised so many things, up to the point, he crashed && burned.

I knew it was going to happen, not saying i did want it too.

But when you right you right. =)

So now, Dyliie, is my bestie, my bestfriend.

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I do love him.

 But we're better of that way.

I should seriously make that line my best phrase when i break up with someone.

[I love you, i do, but i think we're better of friends.]

KEWLNESS!!

&& no, i'm not sappy && sad.. i am perfectly fine =).

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By the way. they were not really my boyfriends.

as far as i know. I haven't had a proper Boyfriend.

Which is good enough for me.

I have dates, but i have never really committed.

So when i say my boyfriend. He really just is my boyfriend.

Cause, we haven't kissed, hugged && all that jazz.

So please do not label me as a slut.

I date, when i know the guy is right.

i'll call him Hubby. NOT BOYFRIEND.

Boyfriends to me are just - Boy-Friends. 

Most of my friends who knows me

Knows whoever my boyfriend is, their just friends =) in a dating form.

Just making sure people i don't know reading this blog.

Knows i am not a slut.

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Oh yes, && my Ex Boyfriend Misses me like hell.

Well, we've been together since August 9th

Up till the 14th November, so we're kinda attached.

We still talk && laugh etc.

but i can see it in his eyes he misses me.

He wrote:

 -As i sit here talking to you. i don't know whether to frown or smile,

all i know is i miss you. wo ai ni.-

He purposely went all out to tell me he loved me in chinese.

i remebered it was hilarious when he first said it.

We'll see, cause we're still in an OR =)..~

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Thanks for reading =)

See ya..

God Bless.

Hop your life is as fun as mine! haha..

Drama.Drama.Drama.

But life wouldn't be fun without it, don't you agree? =)

On A Break, OR Much? ~

Well, it finally happened, 

i have been thinking about breaking up with my boyfriend to be honest.

I Do Love Him, i do. But the fact that we can't see each other or talk right.

Coz calls to Australia or here is like a BOMB.

But yeah, i initiated that we become friends && he obviously freaked at first..

But after a long talk he finally agreed.

I need him to concentrate on his family.

&& we did agree to be in an OR = Open relationship.

So if we find another, we stay friends.

If we still have feelings for each other, we could always hook up again,

I guess we loved each other more like friends

Due to the taking care of like bro && sis mode.

We hardly were intimate.

Mostly just fooling around, trashing the place, having well, FUN!

Not very "lovey dovey" right?

Not very lovers like either.

He was my best friend, end of story.

&& i don't need judgment from you guys reading this.

Now the only song for this feeling is.. Always be My Baby ~

I will miss the times we had.

But i think we will enjoy it more as friends =).

We were as one babe

For a moment in time

And it seemed everlasting

That you would always be mine

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Now you want to be free

So I'm letting you fly

Cause I know in my heart babe

Our love will never die

No!

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You'll always be a part of me

I'm a part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

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I ain't gonna cry no

And I won't beg you to stay

If you're determined to leave girl

I will not stand in your way

But inevitably you'll be back again

Cause ya know in your heart babe

Our love will never end no

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You'll always be a part of me

I'm part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

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I know that you'll be back girl

When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh

I know that, you'll be right back, babe

Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time

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You'll always be a part of me

I'm part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....

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You'll always be a part of me (you will always be)

I'm part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on (we will linger on....)

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

Always be my baby =) ~

A Sudden Ending To One Who Was Loved ~

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An Unfortunate Sad happening happened today, 

as my boyfriend's Biological mother just passed away.

My boyfriend has a different past you see, 

A past that cannot compare to others.

But it doesn't make him any different.

It doesn't make him any plain or dull,

&& Neither will i talk about his past.

but i do feel pain for him,

i do feel sad,

&& i want to be there for him at his time of need.

But sadly i can't,

 due to the fact that i am not where he is now.

i wish he or i were still near together.

i wish he && i were still holding each other.

But due to our studies we were forced to be apart.

i made him leave for his future.

&& i was going to him anyways.

So all we do is wait.

Wait until we meet like lost strangers in a crowd when we first met.

Wait until the day he holds me in his arms like never before.

But i know i love him though, how many can actually say that?

I mean i am really careful in my judgements

to be honest i might not seem so.

i might seem wild && too outgoing.

i admit i am daring, i admit i am random,

but i am a true classy lady in && out,

&& hoped to be respected && treated so.

My Boyfriend knows it,

&& he respects me the way i am supposed too.

Maybe that's why i love him?

Maybe not, but one thing i know, i love my boyfriend to bits.

&& Love has no boundaries.

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I Love You Babe && i'll always be there whenever you need me.

I Love you Baby, i will always do.

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.:R.I.P Mrs. Pen Couldrey:.

Even If I Never Knew You. May God Be With You.

&& How you were hurt, may he be punished for what he has done.