Belly Peircing??~

Hah!! if you haven't noticed yet?! I'm the type of person in LOVE with Peircings!! I do not know how people can find it digusting or of the sort? It's totally my one of my likings. If you do not already know, well now you DO!! haha.. I got htis peircing for a while now, but i haven't been consistant with my posts and blogs, not even my V-log. But i'm going to tell you all the 

happenings i had for the past 2 months.

Okay, back to the peircing story again. well, my parents didn't know about, coz i kept this secret on the Low. My mum hates body piercing, especially the belly, coz she says it will hurt the "Future Baby." I didn't really understand that? i thought my future baby would be fine or i don't know if i will even have one? But i would Love to have babies with my true love one. && yes people, i'll tell you what i look for in a guy most, i'll even list them out for you here on my blog okay?? FIne, anyhoo..

This is Benji.. He got the same peircing. Yup, a guy doing he's belly, the same as that Venus guy from the old F4. Only chinese people would know who they were. Anyhoo.. Benji said he wanted to do it a long time ago. At first i hated the fact that people who had belly piercing were bitchy. but then, i thought a peircing is just a piercing right? How can it make anyone different? At first i had gotten it before. But it closed up && i never thought that i would do it again? So once i went out with ol' benji and he suddenly decides to tell me that he was going to get a Bloody Belly Piercing??

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I mean if you call me out && suddenly shocks me by saying that, i would think your Down Right Gay. So i said, "it's your decision, Go ahead if you want." && he did it!! After that it was my turn, so i pierced the belly with him, walked around the mall in a little pain, But Benji Couldn't take IT!! haha, funny ol' Benji && we looked for another piercing to exchange the ones we have right now. We got the same belly peircing ring at the same time. Now that's COOL. && that's what BFF's Should do.

The Way I Felt After My Break Up..~

la la la la la la.. la la la la la la.. la la la la la la la la..
You took too long, you took too long, you took too long for you to call back
and normally i would just forget that,
except for the fact it was my birthday my stupid birthday.
i played along , i played along, i played along right out of my back.
but obviously my honour was cracked,
what kind of a boyfriend would forget that, who would forget that?

The type of guy who doesn't see what he has until she leaves
don't let me go..
cause without me you know your lost
rise up now or pay the cost
soon you will know.. oh!

Your not living til your living
living with me..ee
your not winning til your winning
winning me..ee.
your not getting til your gettieng
getting me..ee.
your not living til your living
living for me..ee.
This is the potential break up song,
all remember this just one, Oh baby please, please tell me.
/ please just admmit your wrong, please baby please, please baby please.


WE got along, we got along, we got along until you did that,
now all i want is just my stuff back,
do you get that let me repeat that, i want my stuff back

you can send it in a box i don't care just drop it off,
i won't be home..
cause without me you know your lost
minus you i'm really rough
soon you will know..

( Chorus )

You can try, you can try
but i know it will be a lie
without me your gonna die
so you better think clearly, clearly
before you nearly. nearly
miss the situations that's gonna cost you dearly, dearly Come On.

( Chorus )

College, Pre-U, Uni = School...~

Can i get a "woot woot." College, Pre-University, University, whatever, call it what you want it is still considered as a school. What's there more to possibly be said?? It's just higher and advancing your studies to be better and smarter or just to get a job and earn a living.
Well this is actually the last semester of my Foudations To Mass Communication. I'm doing a Degree course and i gotta say, it's not as easy as i taught. Everyone thinks that Mass Communications students are so lax and dumb coz they couldn't make it i the science stream. Well my dear science people who think that way, YOUR FREAKING WRONG! W.R.O.N.G. it's the same Bloody Thing! Well guess what science People. You Pay Us to Advertise Your SHIT!! Now what do you have to say to that!?!

I'm sorry i'm being a little pissy && bitchy, but i couldn't take it when one of a Freinds freinds told HIm so. Like hell their better than us? You Must Be out of their FREAKING MIND!!

Anyways, the downline is, i hate college, even with friends i find it pointless to talk to them. Okay honestly i has some drama in the first semester, with a certain female named G-wen Or however you spell it. She dared take over my idea, my drawings my AD n proclaimed it was all hers!! Sheesh!! How can a person be so DUMB!! Honestly, that was the last drama i w0uld love to hear. But eventually it got worse. After we never saw that trecherous G-Wen again, Yup she did not ever come back to school. she was the one of the oldest in class, Which in her Sick Twisted little mind apparently believed she could control us all!! i admit i disliked her in so many areas that i shan't describe, but after that whole scenario, i said bye to the last of what i though the end of the drama stage.

But no, it had gotten much worse, way worse. Since people had nothing to gossip about or either talk about, they started radding out on each other! Of coz including me. Actually everyone thought that i was either a PUNK . EMO . ROCKER but mostly GOTHIC. So what if my favourite colour is Black? i'm colourful enough to be anything! Please don't LABEL peopl, it get really, HONESTLY SPEAKING, TIRING, IRRITATING, ANNOYING && i will consider you all as a SNIVELING LIL TWAT that has nothing else BETTER to talk about! I hate it when people starts Labeling, It gets OLD so fast, i'd rather take a ROCK && slam it into the persons Hell Idiotic MOUTH!!

But well i have grown out of all these gossiping && wasting precious time about. with all this rubbish. SO eventually i stopped talking to everyone in College && talked to people more useful of my time. I know i sound really Ignorant right now, but that's just how i feel Now. People have nothing else better to do but gossip. As my friend Leonard would say " Why would i stop gossiping, when their obviously gossiping about me? It's a cycle no one can stop." Well i would say he is right, but does it really mean we should as well? Conformmists. Sheesh!!

Well that's all i shall be blogging about my College now, It gets tiring just to think about all these, but i wanted to write it down && focus on what i'm supposed ti do, STUDY! Whatever you call your School, It's STILL SCHOOL!! && the drama never changes. && here i am thinking people would be more sofisticated than that in High-School. Oh Well. My last sem && i'm off To Aussie.

Thanks for reading. Cioazz~

Back && Gone (My lil SiS' was Back) ~

Well, basically this is just all about my lil sis Sharky an ABC, American Born Chinese,

well actually she's more like AMC, American Dad and Chinese Mum, so American Mixed Chinese. Yes, she was born in Malaysia, that's how we basically met. Now let me break it down for you, that will kinda explain her being my lil sis and the "Coming back" part.
Once upon a time, long long ago, there lived a.. Naah, i'm not going to start like that. lol. So, my life was kinda like traveling alot, moving up and down, left to right. My family finally landed in Johor Bahru where my dad was born. I'm a K.L (Kuala Lumpur) City Gal. So u can be suprised of my randomness and quirkyness. LMAO.
Anyways, back to the story, i met sharky in Johor Bahru when she was around 12 or so, the same age as my lil sis Emelia.

Emelia (WMK/C)



Sharky (SCMCC)

Yup there they are, so back to the story, we were in Johor Bahru doing our A.C.E now known as CA Resourses (Hate the teachers). It's basically a school. we met in Junior high up to high school && that was the only reason to get to school, meet our besties and hav fun && sometimes cause major damage. You don't wanna know had i was in high school, breaking all the rules were fun. but i've "grwon up" now.. Well, sorta!! lol. I can be still a lil immature, but still learning in life to figure out the solutions to my problems.

&& if your wondering about the letters next to their names, it's their chinese names, which i'm no.. i'm not telling. Yes back to Sharky again, we met in School, Junior HIgh to High School, Emelia && Sharky are the same age except diffferent birthdays, Emelia is an April Baby like me and Sharky is a December Baby. They met in school && gotten to love each other so much til they became best
friends, from best friends to the bestest of friends and from then on Sharky became my lil sis' best sista,
which means that from then onwards, Sharky would always stay over go out whenever we do, traveled together.. etc bla bla bla.
So from that point on, i cared for her too && started to take care of her when she was in need. We became family after that, so ever since then up til now we still keep in contact, online,the phone, whatever possible.



After a few years past, her real family had some problems, parents divorced and dad found a new wife, Alina from Russia, Ex model. both parents got married to other people, mum stays in America && dad is posted everywhere his job says to go. She had to go to Russia, America, Kuala Lumpur && we never got to see her.
But Once she went to Russia, she had to come back coz her Visa expired.
So off they went on the quikest time plane they couold find, coz the government told them it
was tonight at that samte day. She actually came on her birthday, which her party was canceled in Russia. So she reached Kuala Lumpur, where i am studying now && the story unfolds.



I was so happy that she was here, but my lil sis Emelia hadly saw her, since she was living in Johor Bahru. So it was usually me && Sharky. Everyday after college classes end, i would take a cab or the trian to get to the city and hang out with her. That was how much i missed her. We watched movies and went shopping, bought same stuffs and enjoyed each others company.
It was too good to be true.
But sadly after a minth past && on febuary 4th, she had to get back to school in Russia. && that was the end to our reuinion.

Only family can be trusted && would try not to do anything to hurt you, it's an old video but i really love it, coz it proves sisters will always be there, no matter what, we'll always help each other, coz we're family. blood related.

Story of my College && Love Life.. ~

So basically, i am going to go back in time. To the first day i stepped foot in college and the new years, and tell you my story from there. Well besides the fact that i am in college. i have loads more to tell you from last years dramatic and unforgettable experiences. && it's my 1st time blogging, so comment alright!



God! i was so happy to finally get out of the house and start a new, fresh life as a college girl! from the 1st day of college, we had Orientation. i met some awesome people, who turned out to be my friends for the 1st semester. there was only 20++ of us in my class, which is somehow the smallest group of our intake. The college told us so. I'm in Taylor's University College by the way and i am still enjoying my life here! I met so many people, made some close friends that i know i can trust, made some enemies, the drama, popularity contests.. etc. Like i always say, "High School Never Ends ." I met great College friends. Some of us even had Photography Sessions with me as the photpgrapher. (www.S.L.A.M.deviantart.com) Awesome is what they are. Everything was the same except the fact that i was now living on my own, no more parents to clean up my mess, no more maid to clean up after you. INDEPENDENT ALL THE WAY BABY!! lol.



Aside from my new found life, i also found something or someone else.

I'm going to tell you something that only a handful knows about. i got myself a boyfriend while i was in Kuala Lumpur doing my College in my 1st semester. Notice when i said "HAD", yup, he's now my Ex, it
only lasted for a month or so . He is a french Moroccan guy. No one knew why i dated the bloody fellow, only God i guess, but I'll tell you the reasons later after the story.. The day i met the fellow was on November 11 of 2007. At first i thought i was able to like the fellow because he was the sweetest thing you could imagine, he treated me so nice and i felt so secured with0 him, i forgotten about my boyfriend in America (Tom Mark Kingsley).

&& this is..
(Lucas Ramo Omar Laarif)

Don't tell me who looks better, cause i know.
&& to tell you the truth, i was deeply in love with Tom && i still am, && he still loves me back too. But we know now that i will not work out.
Yes i had a boyfriend in America when i met him and he knew about Tom, but he did not care. You see, i had problems (trust issues) with tom, so he and i
were in the midst of breaking up. Tom is mixed as well, i don't
know why i fall for mixed guys??
He is Malaysian and American Mixed. So i met him the same way as Lucas. Tom kept on moving
up and down, so i decided to end it, which i still regret til now. It's not that i could not handle Long Distance Relationships, it was the trust he and i had had broken since we moved away from each other.
Tom and i are friends now, and i still can tell him anything in the world and he will be there for me.



When i finally.. thought i had my mind made up and went for Lucas, i dumped
Tom straight away, without hesitation. O, his name is (Lucas) Ramo Omar Laarif and yes i am aware that he is a Muslim, which i converted into a Christian, thus having the name Lucas. Being with him has actually made me regret ever letting
go of Tom and i had a lot of bullshit to
come since
Lucas entered my life. He and i met each other at a shopping mall in K.L Sungai Wang, Mcdz. At 1st i met him through a friend in VampireFreaks.com

and again yes i am aware i met him online. I knew my friend from VF long ago while she was still in Malaysia. She moved to America Californiai after half a term when we were 16 in High School.

The Thing is, she got to know him through online as well, but he decided to move to Malaysia because he knew we were here. After knowing him for a few days, he actually said HE LOVES ME!! Who the hell says "I LOVE YOU!" after a few days being together?? Come on!! From that day on, everything went bad and sour.




At first he told me his father was a Lying Son of a Bitch Bastard Cheater. So for a while he could stand his father bringing home different girls to sleep with. One Night he could not take it anymore and decided to tell his father off. He told me what he did and he and his dad had some problems and was kicked out of his place, He had no where to go? What did you expect me to say?? All those times while he was going on and on, i was thinking
" WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING WITH THIS GUY??"
I have this certain standard when it comes to guys. They must make me happy, laugh, safe and loved, which is very easy to do. I
don't really care if he would be a
>>>>>>>> RICH BASTARD<<<<<<
with loads of dough to splash around, as long as you can provide
for me, I'm happy :).

I had to break up with him 3 times before i finally stood my ground and said NO MORE!! I kept But you see he.. O man! he had no money, i fed him for almost a month. i felt like i had a child to take care of. he was insensitive. and kept on telling me my place sucks that he could get me a real home with a car... bla bla bla.. Yeah Right!! At 1st i believed him, waiting for the day that he would take care of me, not the
other way around. Sooner than not my
feelings for him changed, to like into annoyance, then i realized to hell with it, i can't take care of a 21 year old guy that wines a lot! he's worse than a baby!! All he could think about was how famous he would get and how rich he is in France. Hello! Wake up and smell the Toxicated air of Malaysia!! We're not in France!!

&& i kept on forgiving him, for i don't know what reasons until i needed to stand firm and say what i mean. I did not love him anymore, he knew it all along, he just wanted me. I even introduced him to my Parents. Yes, i brought him home to Johore Bahru. My parents told me he was out to get my money because he had none now, since his father kicked him out, but i did not believe them. because he liked me way before that. Although i did ponder on it, but it was not the fact that i listened to my parents, although i dop remember, it was because of the annoyance he gave me that i broke up with him.

So the reasons i had him as my boyfriend was, i pitied him, i wanted to help him because had no place to go, he "Loved" me and i really pitied him.

Reasons i now hate him! :

1. i had to hang out with him every single day.
   
2. i could not see my friends, leading me to lose touch with them.
3. he was very clingy.
4. he was jealous of every guy i talked to.
5. i could not trust me.
6. i had to take care of him like i had a baby!!

..The End..
so that was what happened to me on November 11 - December 10 of 2007..