So basically, i am going to go back in time. To the first day i stepped foot in college and the new years, and tell you my story from there. Well besides the fact that i am in college. i have loads more to tell you from last years dramatic and unforgettable experiences. && it's my 1st time blogging, so comment alright!
God! i was so happy to finally get out of the house and start a new, fresh life as a college girl! from the 1st day of college, we had Orientation. i met some awesome people, who turned out to be my friends for the 1st semester. there was only 20++ of us in my class, which is somehow the smallest group of our intake. The college told us so. I'm in Taylor's University College by the way and i am still enjoying my life here! I met so many people, made some close friends that i know i can trust, made some enemies, the drama, popularity contests.. etc. Like i always say, "High School Never Ends ." I met great College friends. Some of us even had Photography Sessions with me as the photpgrapher. (www.S.L.A.M.deviantart.com) Awesome is what they are. Everything was the same except the fact that i was now living on my own, no more parents to clean up my mess, no more maid to clean up after you. INDEPENDENT ALL THE WAY BABY!! lol.
Aside from my new found life, i also found something or someone else.
&& this is..
(Lucas Ramo Omar Laarif)
Don't tell me who looks better, cause i know.
&& to tell you the truth, i was deeply in love with Tom && i still am, && he still loves me back too. But we know now that i will not work out.
Yes i had a boyfriend in America when i met him and he knew about Tom, but he did not care. You see, i had problems (trust issues) with tom, so he and i
were in the midst of breaking up. Tom is mixed as well, i don't
know why i fall for mixed guys??
He is Malaysian and American Mixed. So i met him the same way as Lucas. Tom kept on moving
up and down, so i decided to end it, which i still regret til now. It's not that i could not handle Long Distance Relationships, it was the trust he and i had had broken since we moved away from each other.
Tom and i are friends now, and i still can tell him anything in the world and he will be there for me.
When i finally.. thought i had my mind made up and went for Lucas, i dumped
Tom straight away, without hesitation. O, his name is (Lucas) Ramo Omar Laarif and yes i am aware that he is a Muslim, which i converted into a Christian, thus having the name Lucas. Being with him has actually made me regret ever letting
go of Tom and i had a lot of bullshit to
come since
Lucas entered my life. He and i met each other at a shopping mall in K.L Sungai Wang, Mcdz. At 1st i met him through a friend in VampireFreaks.comand again yes i am aware i met him online. I knew my friend from VF long ago while she was still in Malaysia. She moved to America Californiai after half a term when we were 16 in High School.
I had to break up with him 3 times before i finally stood my ground and said NO MORE!! I kept But you see he.. O man! he had no money, i fed him for almost a month. i felt like i had a child to take care of. he was insensitive. and kept on telling me my place sucks that he could get me a real home with a car... bla bla bla.. Yeah Right!! At 1st i believed him, waiting for the day that he would take care of me, not the
other way around. Sooner than not my
feelings for him changed, to like into annoyance, then i realized to hell with it, i can't take care of a 21 year old guy that wines a lot! he's worse than a baby!! All he could think about was how famous he would get and how rich he is in France. Hello! Wake up and smell the Toxicated air of Malaysia!! We're not in France!!
God! i was so happy to finally get out of the house and start a new, fresh life as a college girl! from the 1st day of college, we had Orientation. i met some awesome people, who turned out to be my friends for the 1st semester. there was only 20++ of us in my class, which is somehow the smallest group of our intake. The college told us so. I'm in Taylor's University College by the way and i am still enjoying my life here! I met so many people, made some close friends that i know i can trust, made some enemies, the drama, popularity contests.. etc. Like i always say, "High School Never Ends ." I met great College friends. Some of us even had Photography Sessions with me as the photpgrapher. (www.S.L.A.M.deviantart.com) Awesome is what they are. Everything was the same except the fact that i was now living on my own, no more parents to clean up my mess, no more maid to clean up after you. INDEPENDENT ALL THE WAY BABY!! lol.
Aside from my new found life, i also found something or someone else.
I'm going to tell you something that only a handful knows about. i got myself a boyfriend while i was in Kuala Lumpur doing my College in my 1st semester. Notice when i said "HAD", yup, he's now my Ex, it
only lasted for a month or so . He is a french Moroccan guy. No one knew why i dated the bloody fellow, only God i guess, but I'll tell you the reasons later after the story.. The day i met the fellow was on November 11 of 2007. At first i thought i was able to like the fellow because he was the sweetest thing you could imagine, he treated me so nice and i felt so secured with0 him, i forgotten about my boyfriend in America (Tom Mark Kingsley).
only lasted for a month or so . He is a french Moroccan guy. No one knew why i dated the bloody fellow, only God i guess, but I'll tell you the reasons later after the story.. The day i met the fellow was on November 11 of 2007. At first i thought i was able to like the fellow because he was the sweetest thing you could imagine, he treated me so nice and i felt so secured with0 him, i forgotten about my boyfriend in America (Tom Mark Kingsley).
&& this is..
(Lucas Ramo Omar Laarif)
Don't tell me who looks better, cause i know.
&& to tell you the truth, i was deeply in love with Tom && i still am, && he still loves me back too. But we know now that i will not work out.
Yes i had a boyfriend in America when i met him and he knew about Tom, but he did not care. You see, i had problems (trust issues) with tom, so he and i
were in the midst of breaking up. Tom is mixed as well, i don't
know why i fall for mixed guys??
He is Malaysian and American Mixed. So i met him the same way as Lucas. Tom kept on moving
up and down, so i decided to end it, which i still regret til now. It's not that i could not handle Long Distance Relationships, it was the trust he and i had had broken since we moved away from each other.
Tom and i are friends now, and i still can tell him anything in the world and he will be there for me.
When i finally.. thought i had my mind made up and went for Lucas, i dumped
Tom straight away, without hesitation. O, his name is (Lucas) Ramo Omar Laarif and yes i am aware that he is a Muslim, which i converted into a Christian, thus having the name Lucas. Being with him has actually made me regret ever letting
go of Tom and i had a lot of bullshit to
come since
Lucas entered my life. He and i met each other at a shopping mall in K.L Sungai Wang, Mcdz. At 1st i met him through a friend in VampireFreaks.com
The Thing is, she got to know him through online as well, but he decided to move to Malaysia because he knew we were here. After knowing him for a few days, he actually said HE LOVES ME!! Who the hell says "I LOVE YOU!" after a few days being together?? Come on!! From that day on, everything went bad and sour.
At first he told me his father was a Lying Son of a Bitch Bastard Cheater. So for a while he could stand his father bringing home different girls to sleep with. One Night he could not take it anymore and decided to tell his father off. He told me what he did and he and his dad had some problems and was kicked out of his place, He had no where to go? What did you expect me to say?? All those times while he was going on and on, i was thinking
" WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING WITH THIS GUY??"
I have this certain standard when it comes to guys. They must make me happy, laugh, safe and loved, which is very easy to do. I
don't really care if he would be a
>>>>>>>> RICH BASTARD<<<<<<
with loads of dough to splash around, as long as you can provide
for me, I'm happy :).
At first he told me his father was a Lying Son of a Bitch Bastard Cheater. So for a while he could stand his father bringing home different girls to sleep with. One Night he could not take it anymore and decided to tell his father off. He told me what he did and he and his dad had some problems and was kicked out of his place, He had no where to go? What did you expect me to say?? All those times while he was going on and on, i was thinking
" WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING WITH THIS GUY??"
I have this certain standard when it comes to guys. They must make me happy, laugh, safe and loved, which is very easy to do. I
don't really care if he would be a
>>>>>>>> RICH BASTARD<<<<<<
with loads of dough to splash around, as long as you can provide
for me, I'm happy :).
I had to break up with him 3 times before i finally stood my ground and said NO MORE!! I kept But you see he.. O man! he had no money, i fed him for almost a month. i felt like i had a child to take care of. he was insensitive. and kept on telling me my place sucks that he could get me a real home with a car... bla bla bla.. Yeah Right!! At 1st i believed him, waiting for the day that he would take care of me, not the
other way around. Sooner than not my
feelings for him changed, to like into annoyance, then i realized to hell with it, i can't take care of a 21 year old guy that wines a lot! he's worse than a baby!! All he could think about was how famous he would get and how rich he is in France. Hello! Wake up and smell the Toxicated air of Malaysia!! We're not in France!!
&& i kept on forgiving him, for i don't know what reasons until i needed to stand firm and say what i mean. I did not love him anymore, he knew it all along, he just wanted me. I even introduced him to my Parents. Yes, i brought him home to Johore Bahru. My parents told me he was out to get my money because he had none now, since his father kicked him out, but i did not believe them. because he liked me way before that. Although i did ponder on it, but it was not the fact that i listened to my parents, although i dop remember, it was because of the annoyance he gave me that i broke up with him.
So the reasons i had him as my boyfriend was, i pitied him, i wanted to help him because had no place to go, he "Loved" me and i really pitied him.
Reasons i now hate him! :
So the reasons i had him as my boyfriend was, i pitied him, i wanted to help him because had no place to go, he "Loved" me and i really pitied him.
Reasons i now hate him! :
- i had to hang out with him every single day.
- i could not see my friends, leading me to lose touch with them.
- he was very clingy.
- he was jealous of every guy i talked to.
- i could not trust me.
- i had to take care of him like i had a baby!!
..The End..
so that was what happened to me on November 11 - December 10 of 2007..
